Broken Hopes and Dreams

2010-04-09T02:09:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow my birthday le.
I'm just so lost for words.
Would love to post and say alot of things like I always do.
Nah,no mood.

Just posting here for the sake of posting.

I should be forward thinking but there's nothing left.
I might just go once I'm done here.
After all,that's what I am here for,and I will finish what I need to do.
I promised.

2010-03-15T18:30:00.000-07:00

Hey~~
Didnt post for a very long time already..
Hahas,but it's ok :)

Short post again..Hmm..No mood for epic posts la!!
Currently into GC now,kinda.
Im lvl33 now! :)
And I got my Dark Assasin!!!
Yay!! Hahas im so happy!!
Bad thing is I need more training lo.. :(

Im grade 2 in piano now btw :)
Still as easy as ever~~ I mean the pieces :P
But I seriously got to focus more abit on piano bahs~
Scales are funnnn~~ I like the feeling of going up and down :D

Anyway,hmm..
That's all I guess
Cya~~!

Let it fade,let it fade.. I've finally found myself..
After a long fight..Mhm..Who wants soda pop? :)

2010-03-08T05:08:00.001-08:00

Changed playlist!

Another wrong move,another price!
Wth.

I shouldn't have.

2010-03-06T19:52:00.000-08:00

Stupid common test! :(

Playing gc more often now..

Ok,that's all!

2010-02-24T00:09:00.000-08:00

If you hate this playlist,I understand :)
An emo personality transformed through the release of the past.

Somebody will hate it even more..

This is me before I met you.

2010-02-19T18:34:00.000-08:00

I added one more song :)

I love my chinese new year!

Hahas,so lucky i got a $50 angbao in my aunt's lucky draw! Yay!

But bad thing is that only visit 2 house this year only :(
Never go to that bungalow relative house so no extra $40+ or so!!
But it's ok for me,i got extra $50 :)

Anyway,there's nothing much to say about new year..
Maybe that I've had steamboat for 3 days already :(
I rejected the 1st one as I was full!
I get full so easily.. But I must eat more!

School..
It's quite ok :)
Playing chinese chess like everyday lor! Hahas :)
But i always lose..Uhh nvm!!

I have to work harder for my exams!!!!!!!!
Ok,that's all :)
Cya~

2010-02-15T01:46:00.000-08:00

You and I really have something weird in common :)

2010-02-14T07:19:00.000-08:00

I changed my playlist's songs :)

To be honest,the songs does mean something.

Lyrically.

I nearly cried at the 3rd song. Im pathetic..

2010-02-12T08:10:00.000-08:00

My biggest wish someday in piano is to be able to play all the 6 piano pieces in my playlist!

All Im left with is the first 3 pieces in my playlist!
But my printer doesnt seem to be working!! :(
So nvm,at least i can work on the first piece in my playlist :D

I hate my phone.

2010-02-11T20:44:00.000-08:00

Ok,so i was lame and made some stupid vids for fun..

1st vid i made yesterday! :)
And another one! My 2nd vid :) It's quite boring actually..Really..Personally I feel that way la..

3rd one,like a tour around my house!
Yes,I flimed myself for awhile here,kinda.

And,last one,although it isnt your birthday yet.
But,Happy Birthday Olivia! :)

Cya~! :)

2010-02-01T05:57:00.000-08:00

Im going to die of guilt..Haix..
Shouldnt have..

EDIT:4/01/2010

Will update the rest on thursday :)
Cya :)

EDIT:4/01/2010
Ok,it's thursday already!
So I paid money for a stupid 10th anni magazine..and i forgot how much i paid for it.. Serious memory problem im having lately..
What did i even say just now?
Im just kidding :) Let's move on.

Here i present you:

Stunningly epic for a school magazine's cover :)
I can't believe my eyes when I saw it for the first time!
What can I say? ITS JUST AN EPIC WIN :)
On a more serious note,I like blue and it should have been blue instead!!!!
But oh well,nothing's perfect :)

And you ask what's inside?
Not as epic as the cover but nice read anyway :)

No..I mean the information or words not the pictures..Ahem ahem..
But im still a guy and you can't blame me :D
Btw,good for you if you can't see the picture properly :D

And...

PIANO!!!!! Actually it's a keyboard so nvm :)

Lastly..

Proof to how lousy my phone's camera is..
DAMM IT THERE WAS THIS SUNSET ATMOSPEHERE WHICH WAS SO COOL AND THIS STUPID CAMERA COULDN'T REALLY CAPTURE IT AND IT ENDED UP BEING A DAYTIME VIEW FROM MY WINDOW!
Forget it.. -.-"

I might post some other pictures next time if i have the chance..
We just got a new table for the computer yesterday and it's quite long and my keyboard is still beside the computer :(
Now,that sucks alot.

Well,today we only had 2 periods la.. So im quite free :)
But yesterday..Hahas..

I RAN 6 TIMES AROUND THE SCHOOL!!!!
So tiring la.. In total i actually ran 3km..Estimated distance but i shouldn't be too far off from this distance..
I hate my legs for being so weak..After 3 rounds only my leg hurts and i can't really continue le..
My stamina deproved alot!!! Boo hoo!! :(
So as usual i drank down 1 whole bottle of ice lemon tea!
So refreshing!

And my bio test get 15/20!!! Yay!!
I didn't really study for it actually but it's a easy test anyway :)

Now,after biology we have physics..

Before i start,if you continue to read on,i assume that you agree that whatever I say from now onwards is not deemed as defamation and/or a personal attack towards any parties involved in whatever I say later.
This is a personal opinon and may not be true or accurate at point of writing.
If you do not agree then please close my blog and stop reading from here.

Just in case :)

Well,we went into class and got into out seats as usual blah blah blah..
And,Mr Hider.. Haix..What can I say about him?
Just because of people who didnt add the arrows he had to waste the class's time by asking people stand at the whiteboard or at the back..
WTF?! This is like so ridiclous.
It's like a girl tapping on a boy's shoulder and the boy responds by punching the girl in the face. Stupid analogy but i think you get my point..
All he ever had to do was to remind the class gently to add in the arrows next time and that's it..
Less than 30secs compared to him wasting 10mins :)
Poor Stephen,got screamed by Mr Hider pretty badly..
If im not wrong he did only the reflection part and didnt do the rest so he kinda deserved it la! Hahas!

Anyway,alot of people dislikes Mr Hider.
"And you think im the bad guy,you'll thank me later."
I think its somewhat like that..
Anyway,I just want to say that if we thinks that you're the bad guy,which we already thinks that you are.
We'll be disinterested in listening to ur lessons and you have to take partial blame if our grades suffer. Do not. I repeat,do not push all the blame to us saying that we have a responsiblity for our studies and that we shouldnt blame you. NO,IF YOU WERE NICER THEN MAYBE WE'LL WORK HARD FOR YOUR SAKE.

To be fair,your lessons are ok. Can see that you apply whatever that was taught to you on how to teach. To me,it's obvious. Kinda. But never mind,it's not that important.

Now,if you want to treat us like babies.
YOU DO NOT JUST SCREAM AT US AS AND WHEN YOU LIKE.
Please,im sick of you complaining and acting as if you're doing so much for us.
About carrying the files up and down,remember,you're the one who doesnt trust us so WHY ARE YOU EVEN COMPLAINING ABOUT IT? Just trust us with the files and scream at those who didnt bring it then if you find carrying the flies around bothersome.

About checking the notes,comeon,don't be such a pain,you can check it every few lessons now and then,maybe a surprise spot check if you so desire but you do not push the blame to us,it's your responiblity as a teacher to check our progress so quit whining about it.

Last thing I want to say. I'll be fast since I want to play AuditionSEA and train my chance already!

That,Mr Hider,a teacher requires patience and understanding.
If you don't have those quailties,shame on you.
You might as well quit being a teacher.
Don't lie saying that you have patience when you scream your head off at every small mistakes we do.
You wanna pick on us,so be it.
You wanna lose ur voice all the time? Fine. It's your voice. Not mine.

And the reason why I didnt speak up when I had the chance in class?
It's the way you phrased your question.
No,you did nothing wrong,but the way you're doing things so ineffecient and cost to benefit ratio of what you're doing is 2:0.001.
So i wouldnt be answering the question if i had mentioned all the things I said previously.

That's all.
Bye :)

Im just so sorry for everything that I've done..
I just have no more energy for all those things that would come later because of what i've said.

2010-01-26T21:24:00.000-08:00

In my playlist there's 6 songs which mean something.

The 1st song represents how I feel towards her
The 2nd song represents my impression towards her
The 3rd song represents how much she means to me
The 4th song represents my outlook on the future
The 5th song represents how I would most probably feel in the end
The 6th song represents how much of an idiot I am

2010-01-19T04:39:00.000-08:00

Ehh.. I dont know what to post le..
I think im going to upload pictures instead..
By Friday I guess.
Err,I won't be posting anymore until..
Lol,until someone's birthday :P

Im abit of a number freak so yeah..
This is the 141th post of my blog and since i have nothing to post..

Why not?

And for the countless times already,my post is short!!!!
Life is tough and so unfair.
School is horrible but life still goes on,it doesnt care about how you feel..

And for the first time let's change it to first person narrative. Im bored.

Im getting a headache from this,you know,I just got really confused. Sometimes it seems like that the thought was decoded,but then it just seems to be a really beautiful misunderstanding.

EDIT(23/01/2010):Let's continue from this post :)

This week has been really terrible..
I had to redo things..Getting tired already la..
Because of my eagerness to finish redoing,sometimes,i didnt have have the time to finish what i should be doing..
Thank god it's only for english that i had to do that la..

And the worst thing is the PoA file lor..
Unluckily the black flie didnt arrive on recess,it arrived at 12pm..
30mins after my recess,that's so unfair!
In the end i got my black file and showed it to my teacher and settled le..

I forgot that my chinese have homework!! So i had to finish and rushed to pass it up after school.. Tiring..I had a headache after that..

Haix...I just dont understand why everytime i can make up to 10 or more different mistakes for english..
Stupid stupid.. Oh forget it!

Next time I will try to make less mistakes!

Lastly,I know I dont really make sense here but bear with me,im just caught in a complicated paradox,in which in the 1st place might never have existed. So my thoughts are being mixed up and i can't remember clearly..

Oh yeah,and this is how my room looks like now :)

Window view of my room!

Another pic,which i think its lame

And for the first time..

Yes,you still can't see my face :P
And i looked like some retard here.. Damm..

Love does hurts,but there's still the feeling of happiness sometimes..

Ok,that's all.
Byes :)

2010-01-16T17:25:00.001-08:00

So my room is finally done!!
Hi,it looks so white although it's supposed to be blue!
I wonder if it's morning blue..(pun intended)

I always have that anyway,yeah,who doesnt?

School is horrible. I wished that I could go home eariler.
Having problems with E.Maths and A.Maths..
Although I understand exactly how it works but it's just that im either too slow in solving it or lots of careless mistakes!
Haix,gonna have to really work on it la..

Lol at the ppl who said the PoA teacher sucked!
Ok,actually it's because that im actually very interested in PoA to the point that it doesnt matter who's teaching.
Alot of ppl said he's boring,i know he's boring because of the fact he just talks and talks,basically reading from the slides? But personally I dont find him that boring..
And I know that he's like Mr Pan maybe? Or Mr Tseng?

I can envision Geography and Social Studies to be quite easy!
Maybe mapwork and source based questions is not that easy but I think I'll get through it..

Ok..I don't think I have anymore to say already..
So byes for now :P

You start to think whether what you've done is actually worth it,you want to help very much,to release her but it doesnt seem to work. You understood why but you can't help but to feel a little depressed about it.

2010-01-15T18:41:00.000-08:00

So the week is over already!
Usually I don't remember almost 90% about what happened..
But..It's still the same!

On Monday,school ends at 10.45am!! Yay!!
And my house just changed sofa and shoe rack!!
Now as im typing this,the guy who came to paint our house is here!
My room is soon turning into pure blue!
Mostly light blue with dark blue!
Her favourite colour,mine is dark blue :)

Yes,they're painting our whole house,I think.

Now I know the advantages of playing with curved fingers.
Yes,I did look like a retard playing the piano when I came back to school to pass up that reflection.
If I was less blur then I wouldnt have to go back in school but nvm..

Finally,playing on upright pianos feels more easier!

I am quite sure that the River Flows in you I played with the pedal which was very nice sounding was just tyco playing :P
But I do understand how to use the pedal more already!

And finally,the day of reckoning..
There's this LTA group project and the teacher insisted must got girl in group!
Unluckily there's only 12boys!
Haix..

Anyways,its about cars..No,not those type of cars like Audi!
Im not sure la actually..

Damm,I have a bad memory!

In spite of being quite busy this year,I still managed to finish 1 more piece!

Lastly,I kinda regretted being the physics rep.. My physics teacher arh..
Can suddenly scream at you de.. Once you slip up,bamm,Im so sorry.
Hmm..Hope I won't get stressed out..Later I forgot collect this..

BAMM,SORRY YOU'RE DEAD. WISH YA LUCK ;)

Hahas,that's all!
And grats to Sybest going to the best class! :)

You start to wonder why your happiness is so short lived,you start to feel abit angry at why do you keep feeling so negatively one moment and it just disappeared the next moment and it'll reappear again. It must have been very painful to ur heart,right?

2010-01-13T04:47:00.000-08:00

School is tiring,never been this tired before..
I won't post as often as before,did i even post regularly in the first place anyway..

You get a little confused and you start to play around without any care,after all,lessons are learnt from mistakes,cruel,but such as is life,you either go up or go down.

2010-01-08T00:00:00.000-08:00

Smile a little smile.
Dream a little dream.
In spite of chasing an impossible dream.
We all can try.
It's raining.

2010-01-06T04:50:00.000-08:00

Wow,sec 3 life is really tiring..
Although its weird,but i feel that time passes really really fast these days..

Ok just posting for fun :)
Cya~

2010-01-04T05:29:00.000-08:00

Haix,my class is a class with 30girls!
Horrible!!
Project with girls,group work with girls,even sitting also around girls!

So the first day was quite boring..Was doodling.. and even more doodling..

And had this speech which was quite boring but not that boring..

I have no mood to go on.

Ok,after wearing the long pants I feel more confident already!
When I look at those who is still wearing short pants,I felt abit of superiority within me. Hehes :)
So weird seeing ppl wearing long pants all of a sudden during recess..

That's all.
Bye :)

2009-12-28T09:08:00.000-08:00

This will pwn the whole movie anytime :D

Seriously.

2009-12-28T08:07:00.000-08:00

Hi,today im going to post something so cool that you would open your mouth in amazement!

Here goes!!!

Ok,almost there!

Just awhile more!

Sorry I lied. I have no idea what to post anyway.
My mind is in a total blank. I get tired too easily.
Remembering the days where the random ideas and words would come,i am totally ashamed by myself.

I do feel like im sick but im not.
I can't think very clearly..Im surprised that i somehow made it through the day..
I feel so dead..
I do want to be animated,but hey,i might just enjoy being dead..
If i cant think i cant be troubled :D

What I can think of now is Chopin's Fanataise Impromptu in C# Minor.
Chopin's Op25 No11 Winter Wind in A Minor
Chopin's Op28 No20 Prelude in C Minor

Ok..This is stupid..
But I like the names :D
Though very difficult to play,except for prelude!
Im going to make it to this level someday!
Yeah,a level above grade 8!
It's at a diploma level :P

2009-12-26T04:09:00.000-08:00

Rejection massively reduces IQ (New Scientist)

Rejection can dramatically reduce a person’s IQ and their ability to reason analytically, while increasing their aggression, according to new research.

“It’s been known for a long time that rejected kids tend to be more violent and aggressive,” says Roy Baumeister of the Case Western Reserve University in Ohio, who led the work. “But we’ve found that randomly assigning students to rejection experiences can lower their IQ scores and make them aggressive.”

Baumeister’s team used two separate procedures to investigate the effects of rejection. In the first, a group of strangers met, got to know each other, and then separated. Each individual was asked to list which two other people they would like to work with on a task. They were then told they had been chosen by none or all of the others.

In the second, people taking a personality test were given false feedback, telling them they would end up alone in life or surrounded by friends and family.

Aggression scores increased in the rejected groups. But the IQ scores also immediately dropped by about 25 per cent, and their analytical reasoning scores dropped by 30 per cent.

“These are very big effects - the biggest I’ve got in 25 years of research,” says Baumeister. “This tells us a lot about human nature. People really seem designed to get along with others, and when you’re excluded, this has significant effects.”

Baumeister thinks rejection interferes with a person’s self-control. “To live in society, people have to have an inner mechanism that regulates their behaviour. Rejection defeats the purpose of this, and people become impulsive and self-destructive. You have to use self-control to analyse a problem in an IQ test, for example - and instead, you behave impulsively.”

I felt extremely rejected,like an outcast,it was just a feeling..

At least there’s an explaination now why i was so stupid and implusive..

I see.. At least it has taught me that next time i should try to look my best on pictures..

Ok..

It's a scary thing..

A mistake.. But i've learnt..

I can't think.. I hate this..

2009-12-23T06:26:00.000-08:00

So i finished 1 more piece!
And decided to attempt a grade 5 piece..
Well it isnt that hard anyway..
If you consider chopin's fantaise impromptu in C# Minor..
Chopin's minute waltz.. Lols..

Short post here..
Wish me luck!!
Byebye!

2009-12-22T05:37:00.000-08:00

Hmm..It feels good when it's sunrise once again..

So I went to watch a movie called Avatar one fine day! Lalalala!
Oh hey there's a rainbow across the hill! *fantasy.exe*

Ok,back to real life..

Movie was cool,so many flashy scences like transformers!
Intially i thought it was about the other avatar called aang..Lols guess i was wrong..
Storyline was interesting.. At least the blue aliens look ok and i didnt puke..
Brief post because im running out of time..
Cant seem to post long epic posts these days..

I think im going to try out tumblr.. My 2nd blog :P
Hahas..
Ok,off to tumblr,byebye :D

2009-12-18T20:57:00.000-08:00

It hurts to feel helpless yet being unable to tell anyone..Especially that silly girl..

I doubt she cares.

Sometimes I wished he listened to me.

Why did he have to like her anyway.

He has made too many mistakes in his life,all he ever wanted was to be able to do something to atone for his mistakes. He sees earning alot of money to help people as the only viable option..

Now what he could do is to at least try to make someone happy..
He may not be the perfect guy but he'll still be here until she finds her perfect guy because that's what he wants for her.

Actually,given his understanding of her,he does have a general idea of her defintion of perfect guy.

Perhaps it's a bad thing as he still cant let go of the fact that he failed to live up to her exepections.

He does want to be that perfect guy so that she would finally be happy but he's tired..

Maybe after sunrise he would feel so much better,but it's night time now..

2009-12-15T08:22:00.000-08:00

I still can't let go of my failure.
If I could do better maybe I won't feel so terrible.

Hmm..Maybe after learning how to play the Entertainer I could cheer myself up :D

I do wonder why if there's a reason for my failure.
For all of the past mistakes.
(That retarded gay i didnt regret,though it was pretty stupid..And the most damaging...)

Well,I remember in Feburary I expressed my thoughts wrongly and a gangster comes after me like a bull who saw red,umm,i like blue though,sorrie :D
I said that whoever failed that test was a loser.
Obviously,someone from a forum said it right,people are either too serious on the internet or totally not serious.
He got offended,screamed at me. Intially i lied,but the way he confronted me was so scary that instinctively i lied.
I like mushroom soup. Ok,let's move on.
Actually,up till now,im not sure if i did the right thing by confessing or was i too stupid by doing that as I could just get away from it,let things die down and 1 less people who hates me.
I just don't understand why he got so worked up about that.
As I am typing this i am still very irriated at his reaction towards me,I DO NOT OWE HIM ANYTHING OR KILLED HIS WHOLE FAMILY OR DONE ANY HARM TO HIM SO WHY DOES HE HAS TO SCREAM AT ME AS IF I'VE DONE EVERYTHING ABOVE!
All I said was the word loser,no one cares,only you do.
And there was another retard who never asks me for permission when he borrows things,CANT HE JUST ASK?!
Yes I hate his stupid face and i will never forget the way he looked at me on Monday when that gangster screamed at me.
Who does he think he is? King of the world?
Lick my shoe,you are just a lazy bum who is just not as smart as me,you deserve failing that test because you were lazy and didnt study and too bad that you're not as smart as me!
SO STOP GIVING ME THAT HIGH AND MIGHTY FACE!
Im trying real hard not to scold any vulgarities.She doesnt like it. :D

Ok,it's partially my fault that this happened but how would I know that he would react that strongly?!
Maybe it was my mistake to admit it,but maybe,just maybe,i did the right thing to summon the courage to admit my mistakes.

And there was a debate somewhere in..Umm I forgot but i own two teddy bears and it is placed near my keyboard.
Anyway,I had ridiclously smart but unfortunately arrogant teammates except for that gay. There were 4 people,me,gay,smarty shorts and smarty jeans.
Hmm..They got 1st and 2nd in class respectively.

Main point,I had this really bad impression on them right from the start.
I am an "outsider" in the team.
So i felt that they were biased against me and i was feeling uncomfortable around them anyways.
Hmm..Looking back at this,i should be more "normal"..
Yes i was badly scarred in the past,we've been there so no need to go into details.
I was really pissed off when that gay treated me as if i did something wrong to offend him..
At least tell me why instead of acting so high and mighty like the retard who doesnt ask for permission(btw,he doesnt dare to take girl's stuff without permission,what a gentleman.)

Perhaps,it's my fault for letting my emotions take over my rational mind.

So i dont really remember the details anymore..
All i remembered was the shame,he had to cross my line.. I STILL HATE HIM AND I WISH HE COULD JUST HAVE A MISERABLE LIFE,AND GO THROUGH WHAT I'VE BEEN THROUGH!
BURN BURN BURN IN HELL YOU PATHETIC GAY WHO IS SO DAMM LAZY IN YOUR STUDIES AND DO U THINK U HAVE MY INTELLIGENCE TO AFFORD TO BE THAT LAZY? WEAKLING,I COULD SMASH U IN THE FACE AND DISFIGURE IT SO THAT U WILL NEVER LOOK LIKE A PROPER HUMAN!
STOP ACTING AS IF YOU'RE SMARTER THAN ME AND IM THE RETARDED MORON..
"DO NOT MESS WITH THE GAY WHO HAS NO BALLS,OR ELSE?" NOOB,I LET IT GO BECAUSE IT WAS NOT WORTH IT ANYMORE.(you have no balls and i wanted to smash some balls..hehs) BESIDES,THE EVENTUAL WINNER IN LIFE WILL BE ME,BECAUSE UR TOO STUPID TO SURVIVE. (hey,just a rant to let go of my pent-up feelings)(Oh,and him not being as smart as me? It's true.Acdemically :P)
Hmm..that would be nice..But if i had the choice,nah..
What's been done is already done,no point ruining,it can't repair the damage.

Whew,what a long post..
Ok.. That's all for the epic long post!
Byebye~

2009-12-13T19:16:00.000-08:00

In a time where my life seems so bleak
Everyday is the same,where the mountain's peak
Impossible to reach,forever so high up in the blue skies
Desperate fights,sorrowful cries
Lost in the chaos until you appeared

As the sun rises,heralding your appearance
Into my small and insignificant life
Afraid to trust the light initially
I ran deeeper into the darkness,trapped within
But when you reached for my hand
All of the darkness faded away

Enticed by the hope of the light you emit
To allow myself to be lost inside of you I permitted
And as the light starts to fade into the darkness
My world started to fade into non-existence once again
I've felt the betrayal of the light and the pain it brings

Sitting on a small hill
Gazing at the skies devoid of light
I wonder when the sun would rise again
Rain started to fall,melancholy notes sustained
From a piano far ahead

Closing my eyes,slowly but surely
Allowing myself to fall into the darkness again
Tears falling like rain
But that famliar hand decided to reached out for me again

Witnessing the rays of light breaking into the skies
I saw the girl who reached out for my hand before
Everything feels so surreal
Looking her in the eye
Was when my heart loved

Paralysed by her awe
I could only watch her
Obsessed by the feelings she creates within me
Touched by her compassion
She was simply breathtaking

But at the very last moment
An empty heart that has lost its confidence
Was what I could give to you

I beileve you'll make it shine with grace again

And
Thanks for brightening up my life and giving my life a whole new direction.
I love you!

2009-12-12T00:56:00.000-08:00

Inspired by one of my favourite duel master card,Aqua Surfer.
Besides,I am feeling abit paranoid.

Titled:Wave Goodbye
Thinking about the past I would always smile
The days where nothing really mattered
We were at best soulmates,best friends

I can't let go of my mistakes
I wish to love you but im too scared
How could I even deserve to love you when im afraid to?

What if i break ur heart?

At the end of the day when I finally had the courage
You smiled at me,waving goodbye
All I could do was to wave back,smiling

Inside of me,inside of me,inside of me

Regrets.

Might write lyrics for river flows in you. But it depends..

2009-12-10T23:35:00.000-08:00

Yay I finished Ballade pour adeline!!
Quite easy actually except for the epic 32th notes which i managed to be able to play it somehow..
I spent days figuring how to play it!
I actually had a fair idea on how to play it but it was my piano teacher showed me how to then i realised how to play it..
Almost the same,just that she made it clearer..
It's weird to show how though.. I just know how.. (Talented i know =D)
I only know that my wrist was very relaxed.. The other movements involved are very subtle..

Sometimes I look back and i see that the pieces that I couldn't play before like Kiss The Rain,River flows in you.
I printed the sheet music for it a very long time ago.. Maybe about 4months ago..
I didnt even have a keyboard back then.. And I could only play the intro of river flows in you,the 1st 3notes of kiss the rain..
LOLS!
I got my keyboard eventually! 17/08/09! Yeah I still remember..

I used to ask myself if i could ever play those songs someday while i was in the piano studio practising newbie pieces which now when i play it just seems so easy..(that means i've improved which is a good thing! OF COURSE I'VE IMPROVED!)
I have the answer now,yes,i could! (but i still have no pizza!)

Ok,that's all.. Im just being lame and random.. It's the holidays anyways..
Im poor and have no money for pizza! *cries*
Byebyes~

2009-12-08T19:29:00.000-08:00

To let go and give up is so easy,yet to continue and hold on is so hard.

Once upon a time,there was a boy who harboured hopes for a girl so far away.
(I believe they had internet,come on,year 1880 with internet?)
At times he felt like giving up,how could this be even possible?
(yeah u have 6 eyes,5hands and 4 nose.. i understand)
He believed in miracles,and the stars that he cast his wish upon..
(I wonder how the stars heard him..Stars have ears?

The boy soon fell into the sorrow within..
Though it attempted to swallow him whole
Yet our hero put up a desperate fight
Our hero soon falls and all's left was the last sad note sustained in the air.

The Eb note.

2009-12-07T18:59:00.000-08:00

I speak in riddles,at times,it can be fun,sometimes,there's a message to uncover.

Here's one,you may not understand but if you've loved you will.

If this was some other shop like a shop selling clothes I wouldnt mind you ruining the whole business,but this is a rice shop,many people's lives will be affected.

Doesnt make sense? As I said,if you've loved you have a higher chance of understanding it.

2009-12-05T22:55:00.000-08:00

So it has been a really really long time since i posted..(No,6days is not that long)
I have now witnessed the wrath of ascending 32th notes..
I do need alot more practise but actually i've been trying to figure out the correct motion before starting in case of ingraining bad habits..

Yes,i am tired to go on.. So i finally met her and blah blah blah.. Not really la..
I may go into details tomorrow but no promises..
All I can say is that i may have screwed up by simply appearing out of nowhere and disappearing out of nowhere..
It's not my first time anyway LOL!
I dont know.. I was kinda confused the whole time,not knowing what to do..
You can say that i was pretty blur the whole time..
Yes,i dont know how to act around girls but you dont have to remind me..
So i think i was acting pretty weird.. Its like sight reading piano music except that i sight read it quite badly..
Ok,that's all..
Byes~

2009-12-01T04:22:00.000-08:00

Yay I finished Kiss the Rain!!! Whew!
It was actually easy once the advanced melody and the simple melody was learned..
I edited the advanced melody xP
Luckily my hands were quite big(not so freakingly big) and can comfortable play octaves but sometimes i slip at the keys..Gotta improve on the playing..Lols..

Ok,i just posted because of this..
Goodbye~

2009-11-30T00:19:00.000-08:00

Im bored..Im all alone..Waiting waiting.. Not really waiting but can say so..
Just bored..Angry at my composition blocks..Horrible..
What comes after G#.. Should I change the Eb note to a Db instead..
F# after that seems weird.. E is totally turning it into some sobby piece again..
Change key to Eb Major? Gb Minor? B major? Lols..
Im just typing whatever that comes to my mind.. Really im not joking..
I am not obessed with her,not obsessed..I have a spelling mistake.. Im horible in spelling..
I would love to try chicken pie someday.. I dont understand what they mean by chinese noodles.. Does it mean that it is made in china?
Anyway i do have a good impression of chinese noodles thanks to the jackie chan show which i have no idea how it gave me that impression..
I wish she added 1 more note in her composition:Sweet Dreams
Her composition are in C Major. (I think? But it should be her composition titled:Friendship that is in C Major)
Yes,I have ears and i can hear that descending scale in C Major.

I dont feel like typing anymore..
I feel like saying goodbye for now..
Goodbye. On 2nd thoughts,I'd go with Gb Major.. Just kidding xP

2009-11-29T17:16:00.000-08:00

So I dont post everyday..But nothing much has been up lately..
Anyways,because im clever,smart and intelligent i have finished up to pg 3 of kiss the rain!
Lols,all i had to do is to edit it and presto,it sounds like the orignal..
Of course,clever technically limited noobs like me had no choice..
I do regret composing..I could have finished kiss the rain by now!!
Currently I am composing another piece which may not be as bad as the previous one as the main idea i have now is simply sweet sounding!
Wow,i could never get to this before..
Always sad,sad,sad.. Rain rain go away..(lame)
It's just 4 notes.. G#-G#(nxt octave)-F#-F
I'd love to replace G# with Ab but too bad im the key of A Major which conicidently have 3 sharps and yes..It does look like a heart in some ways.. (EbMajor looks more like it though..)
Im just not sure how can I connect this with the verse.. Might turn into a ballade..And why not?
It just feels so weird that it just can't be repeated and i have to do it in a ABA forms.. But what's connecting it?
Im confused and lost now.. I hope my piano teacher can help me! Hahas
Ok,that's all.. Byebye~

2009-11-26T07:13:00.000-08:00

Wow it's been awhile since i posted..
Im currently in a suitation where no notable improvements can be seen in my piano playing.. Or maybe since now my 4th and 5th finger are now stronger,i can smash down the octaves chords more easily!!
Like kiss the rain!! It's actually quite easy once the simple version of the melody is learned,it's just that my fingers need more time to adjust to octave smashing lols!!

It's quite cool that my hands can easily stretch to an octave comfortably!! Hahas im not really showing off la..
My maximum length is up to a 10th.. Which is 2 notes after an octave..
I was literally pressing it at the very tip of my fingers!!

And i watched 2012!!
I was wearing track pants that my father bought for my bro during his trip to brunei.. It costs $60 and when i wore it i understood why it is was so expensive..
It was so comfortable and i was totally in the mood to run!!
Need4Speed Mode u can say it.. xP
I wonder if it's fated but i wasnt carrying anything so everything was perfect to just start running!!
But we had to eat first..Aww.. I had japanese curry rice!!
Really nice but i was eating too fast so my stomach was kinda uncomfortable..
Thank god we were at junction 8,so many portable grands to play with!!
Yamaha feels more natural and i like it.. Casio feels kinda fake as it feels like a keyboard..
My back ache from bending down to play!! Lols..
Then my mum brought ice cream and so i rushed there!! I was practically sprinting past ppl and some of them seemed shocked..Others i dont know..too fast to capture anything..

Yes,im damaging my stomach by running after i eat but im used to it..
I play football after i ate lunch in pri 6!!
And the stupid teacher would always tell us that PSLE is coming and we should focus on our studies instead of playing football..
Unluckily,1 of our classmate who played with us hurt his hand by accident while playing(he was the goalkeeper) and so our stupid teacher told us that we shouldnt be playing because if we get injured we cant focus on PSLE..
(Til now,i wonder if this is just nonsense or the truth,but whatever,it's been so long ago already)

Too bad the ice cream was expensive and so my mum only bought 1 small cup of it..
I got only 2 scoops!! But the ice cream was really really nice!!

I got bored with the piano playing and so i rushed to popular for books!!
(I should stop running past ppl like that,i might give them a heart attack,besides,i cant be that selfish..)
Anyways,I was feeling worried and random(is this even possible?!)
And so i sent a msg to her(dont ask me why i did it,i already said i was feeling worried and random)
Then,the phone rang,it was her...........friend who used her phone to call...
I picked up,and i knew instantly it wasnt her.. This isnt day one of knowing her.. It's not her style..
Instantly,i was greeted with a cute voice asking if i wanted pizza.(Just kidding)
Actually i was greeted was a cute voice asking if i liked her..(Sorry,although u have a cute voice but i dont like you.)
Yes,I hate you for making me nervous and jumpy.. (since i was running just now it only makes it worse)
And she called again,being in nervous and jumpy state which makes me run faster!!(yay,but i still hate you)
I ruined the fun! (Hello,i am nervous and jumpy and you expect me to be in the mood for jokes?)
I ran 3 rounds at the 4th floor after her friend called for the 1st time and yes,i was running as fast as i can until i couldnt take it anymore.. I was just running and running until i felt less nervous and jumpy..More ppl were shocked at my epic speed..

When her friend called for the last time i was at the piano playing chromatic scales..It was so so noisy..And yes,i regretted listening to high pitched voice which hurt my ear.. But i heard a scream that was comfortable to my ear..(weirdo spotted)
Reminds me of red..
During the 2mins of hell,i was muttering ridiclous and stupid which i think no one would have heard it!

Lastly,before the movie started we went into christfori to play proper upright pianos!!
The sounds was so so much better than my keyboard at some notes..But my dad says that i mux reach Grade 3 standard before i could get a proper upright piano!!
I wonder how long will that take..
I hope before April so that i could get a upright piano for my birthday!!

And last thing i want to say.. It is always a good idea to ask me to help you hold your cokes,chips,fries etc.. :D

Okok,movie time!!
The movie was kinda draggy but being a sucker to epic flashy scenes which was plenty in this movie i enjoyed it!!
There was some emotional scenes which made me wanted to cry but i held it back..
But im a guy i cant cry!! (o.o rhyming!)

And finally,after knowing that new moon was released i was hesiatant to watch it because of twilight..
I felt cheated when i watched it.. The movie was like progressing so fast ofr my liking,skipped parts which i like in the book and makes it seems rushed..
The intro was hardly interesting..Forget it,i nver liked the intro anyways..
What if new moon was like this!! Lols..
Maybe i wont be watching it anyway so who cares..
Ok,that's all..
Byebye~

Oh and Nobody's Home by Avril Lavgine is a nice song!!
Im learning the piano version of it now!
I used to feel for this song some time ago..

2009-11-23T17:55:00.000-08:00

Yay i finished River flows in you!!
Kinda easy,just repeat the main part which took me 4days..Actually,sometimes i go out of control at this part but it was much worser before..
During this 4days i've realised the importance of proper sitting position on the piano..
For 3days i thought that it was my fingers that was weak until the 4th day then i realised it was my sitting position..
My feet dont touch the ground and therefore there is no support for my hands..
And my impatience..Should have practised more slower longer..
And therefore,i could have finished the song 2days earlier!!
But we all learn from mistakes so it's ok i guess.. Hahas..

Its kinda pathetic that because i practise on the keyboard,so im horrible at the piano,i mean playing with weighted keys.. Now i know why a piano is so important in piano playing..Haix.. Hope to get one soon..Lols..

I do hope she's okay..

Kays,that's all.. I wonder what to practise next.. Hmm..

2009-11-18T07:03:00.001-08:00

Whew.. Long time never post again.. Lols..
But it doesnt really matter.. I havent been practising piano seriously anyways so i cant really post a practise journal..

I have started practising properly today and now i finally realised that i dont need to practise 4hrs everyday to improve.. I've started practising for like an hour or 2 these days..

Anyway i jux finished the 1st page for River flows in you!! Hope to finish it in 3days,1pg 1 day xP Hahas.. Hmm,I have to relax more while playing this.. My muscles feels tensed when i play it..
Ballade pour adeline is kinda difficult so it'll take longer i have to play wif my weakest fingers but oh well,more practise makes perfect :D
Didnt really touch Kiss the Rain so i wont be talking about it..

I am pretty angry when my finger feel so weak.. Lols..
No choice,have to push on to increase the strength of my finger..Haixx..

K,byebye xP

2009-11-11T08:15:00.000-08:00

Lols havent updated in a long long time already..
Having some problems with Kiss The Rain..A definte finger workout..
Well..My fingers feels so weak nowadays..(Maybe cos of kiss the rain? o.o)
Especially the 4th finger.. Dont know why..
Ahh so sad that the way i played the chromatic scales is wrong!!! It'll take quite awhile to let the correct method to sink in.. Haix.. I have to use my 2nd finger too but i only used the 1st and 3rd finger previously.. So that's why there's a speed wall.. Lols..

So my piano teacher has taught me a way to promote finger indepedence..
Hmm.. Hold down finger 1,3 and 5 and move finger 2,4 without affecting the other fingers that is being held down..

And it's offical,Im weird.. MY LEFT HAND IS STRONGER THAN MY RIGHT?!
AND I LIKE SCALES!
Im a lefty? Not.
Im really boring? Nah,not really.. But usually,yes.

Ok,so im trying to memorise pieces that im learning so that i can play in public..
Hehe im such a show-off.. Lols!
I've already memorised musician already..It came naturally..
But first love is another story.. I always seem to always need to rely on the sheet..
So im actually trying to commit it to memory but somehow i feel really tired..

I think im going to commit Saturday to my classical book so that i can finish it faster and become Grade 3 by this holiday.. OMG! I wish.. But hey,it's quite possible..

Ok,that's all..
Byebyes~~

2009-11-06T04:45:00.000-08:00

Yeah just a little abit more towards the end of the 1st pg of Kiss the Rain..
Don't know why the fingering of the chord was such that i have to totally move my hand to hit D. I mean that D-F-C chord towards the end of the 1st pg.. Quite an effort for my fingers.. Hah!

Anyways I started on the 2nd pg le.. Quite easy for the 1st 10 bars..Just needs to be broken apart and repeated.. Might take a day..Not sure..Im at the 1st 5 bars of it already but the playing is quite insecure and sounds kinda weird but i'll work on it :D

Ahh..Quite confused on how to play the Unfinished Symphony!!
So to play it safe i decided to stop until my piano lesson xP
Quite afraid I would ingrain wrong playing into this piece..
Maybe Im paranoid.. Or because I don't wish to progress so fast as I've been spending quite abit of money into piano books already.. Lols..

Anyway that is all for today ^^
Byebye~

2009-11-04T05:38:00.000-08:00

Oh yeah! Finally I mastered First Love!!! :D
I know im verii slow but that's just me.. Short Attention Span..
Looking forward to increase attention span..Ahh..

Started on my grade 1 book..
So I've already finished Minuet,9th Symphony,Lullaby and Egyptian Dance!
Lols so many le but there's like 42pieces.. -.-"
Currently on Unfinished Symphony Theme..
Egyptian Dance sounds kinda weird but extoic.. I was feeling kinda weird when I played it..
For Lullaby it sounds kinda nice and soothing but at some part I played it off beat so i think i gotta work on it abit more I guess..
9th Symphony was basically an upgraded version of Ode to Joy! Cute song actually xP
Finger change feel awkward but I guess i got used it..Teacher says that it trains the finger..Which I kinda agree of since it involves using my weak fingers..
Namely finger 3,4 and 5..
And I've found out 1 good advantage of piano..That..You'll never forger to cut ur fingernails!! And that is so awesome as gone are the days where you have to stand up just because ur fingernails are abit longer.. Lols..

Ok that's all for my day^^
Byebye^^

2009-11-03T07:21:00.000-08:00

Haixx so sad can't really strike out first love today!!!!
But almost le!! :D
Don't know why somehow i still hv problems in pressing the chords -.-"
5th finger is too weak!! Ahh!! Finally figured out how to play the whole song le..
Phew.. It stil sounds disconnected but im confident tomorrow can le!!!

I used to be quite unfocused when learning a piece but it's getting better..
Anyways im quite tired these days.. Don't know why..

Looking back into the past I find myself quite whiny..
My previous blog posts was extremely whiny..
An example would be: Haixx everyone seems to be hating me.. This sucks and the world is unfair.. I feel so alone and scared..
And with an emo poem to finish it off.
This world feels so cold
I feel so alone
Hoping that someone would notice me
I cry in the rain
Searching in vain
To belong

Yeah yeah you get the point.. I feel very stupid writing this type of poems now..
Probably because of increased self-confidence.. xD
But I still feel weird talking to girls.. Ehh idk..
Like nothing to talk about.. Anyway i cnt think of anything to talk abt if i feel uncomfortable around them anyway..

Oh and I can't beileve im saying this.. REALLY!
But umm.. Ballet rox!!

Hehs short update.. That's all~
Byes~

2009-11-02T05:50:00.000-08:00

So i didnt update yesterday.. Damm..
Oh yeah i finally know how to edit the date le!!!!
And so it's correct now..Though im nt sure abt the time bt nvm..
Umm.. Yesterday i was on Kiss The Rain and perfecting Musician..
Still hving some rhythm probs for Musician and Sebestian can play it better!!!
And 2 days only lehhh!!!! Haixx..
Still need to work on my fingering for Kiss The Rain.. Quite weird..Sometimes can play it well but other times it sounds really broken.. Just the last few bar to go for the 1st pg!!!
And that conludes yesterday's practise..Hmm I seem to be practising in shorter periods now.. I think now i only practise for 2 to 3hours? Gotta train my focus and determination!!! And previously I was practising like 5-6hrs and sometimes 7.. Ok,this is really stupid.. Maybe Im just tired frm practising so long..

Today,I started on first love again.. Well well what can I say..
I've given up on the 1st part of my version that im learning now..
Luckily I have 4 version of it!!!! Hehes!!
And so Im learning the 1st part of that version and connect it to my version..
I'll need abit more practise for the chords and my stupid rack is not big enough for 5 pgs!! Only can 3.. Haix haix haix.. HAIX!
Hopefully I can strike out First Love by tomorrow or the day after! :D
Playing of muscian is improving..Hmm good!
Didnt touch Kiss The Rain today.. Maybe later xP

Hmm..I was wondering what I would be learning next when im done with the remaining 2 songs.. I do have 3 songs in mind.. If I could see you again-Yiruma,Ballade pour adeline and The entertainer.. Quite hard to choose.. Maybe River flows in you but idk.. Looks easy to me anyway..
Nvm..I'll think about it when it comes..

Today i just got my new book for Grade 1! It's quite expensive at $15.50.. Lols..
I asked my piano teacher if this book would last quite awhile because I already bought 2 books within a month or 2 le..
She said I improved too fast le so cnt be hlped.. LOLS! Anyways she said it would last quite ahwhile.. Phew!
And today i showed and played to my teacher my composition! She said it was nicee! :D
Wished I had an upright instead of a keyboard.. The sound quality is so so much better!! But hey,keyboard is fine with me ^^ As they say,appreciate what you hv now..
But my notation was like so totally wrong until she can't understand it.. Uhh not my fault that my theory is so horrible..
Lols and she said i needed a better teacher.. But I think that she's verii good already le!! Im glad to have her as my teacher!! Somehow she reminds me of Olivia..In a way.. That patience.. Oh forget it!

Well that's all from me..
Byebye :D

2009-11-01T01:05:00.001-07:00

Haix I wonder what's wrong with the weather these days..
Yesterday it was raining.. Today we have haze!
Gosh my senstive nose can't take it anymore! At least now it's ok now.. Phew.. xD
Was sneezing and sneezing the whole day... How I wish my nose was less senstive..

I am currently downloading Finale Notepad 2010 now..
Damm..I wasted time just now to download Finale Reader 2010?! (retarded boy spotted)
Ok,short post and that's all..
Will update my piano practise later since I haven't really started..
Currently Im watching a video on learning how to play romantic piano.. Lols.
Just hoping for inspiration to improve.. hehes!!

Byes~!

2009-10-31T07:34:00.000-07:00

Yes I am very happy to made it alive! I've done the impossible!
No,it's not climbing up to the peak of Mount Everest,come on it's much more awesome than that!
The first man to fly? No,don't be silly,although I like flying :D
It's..It's..It's.. (drumroll!)
CLEAN UP MY ROOM! (sigh what an idiot it's just a damm room that's all)
Oh but it hasn't been cleaned up for a year or so.. xP (no wonder his exam results sucked)

Anyway it was so dusty that i sneezed all the way through.. A whole load of waste paper to throw away.. I needed 2 BIG plastic bags for all of this.. From here I've learnt that i should be less clingy onto things.. If it's useless,discard it as there is no point in keeping it.. Like memories worth forgetting yet it has left a scar that prevents me from forgetting..Haix stupid..

Before:

After:

See! Now my room is clean and tidy!!!!! :D
YEAH I AM SO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!
I was quite tired after that and drifted off to blissful sleep soon later.
I woke up to dark skies.. Gosh it's raining.. Quite scary actually but i've grown used to it already and actually i like that feeling of doomsday..
At this time of posting at 10.59pm the rain has stopped. Lol random.

Oh and im quite slow but here are the bears i bought during the charity bazzar..
Prepare for the most cutest picture ever! EVER! EVER! EVER! EVER!

The smiling bear reminds me of Olivia..SO CUTE! :D
The blue bear also very cute! Sometimes that blue bear reminds me of me.. Hehes!
It has always been one of my motivations to stick with learning a piece!
I just look at the bears and i'll think of Olivia smiling at me.. And it somehow gives me the sense of jyjys.. Hahas!

And lastly..

Feel free to make it larger..This is the score sheet to my first piano composition!
So i guess this saves me the trouble of notating it in Finale Notepad.. :D
Im going to upload my recording to Youtube later.. Lols.. Watch this space..When Im done with it i'll put the link up here..

Link:

Turn up your volume for this one.. Lols I know the sound quality is bad but im only 14! Haix..

That is all with today ^^
Goodbyes!

2009-10-30T22:59:00.000-07:00

So the holiday have started and today is halloween!! Lols!
Do I foresee a nightmare coming my way? :(

(The timing in my blog is screwed up like totally.. Gosh..)

Oh anyway I just finished my piano composition yesterday!
Although it still can be continued.. I think I'll continue it and besides it's like a sight reading exercise and just 1 day i've felt that my sight reading skills improved..

Intially I wanted to name it "You are my love" but i've decided on Ice cream Love.
A cold,yet sweet love. It's a shame that MIDI cables are sold separately!!! AHH!!
So I can't upload my recorded playing from the keyboard.. Stupid..
But hey,I may decide to do the sheet music for it instead on Finale notepad?
Oh and i was feeling very insecure and quite paranoid yesterday so that composition was pretty much influenced by depression..

And the 1st part of First Love is still well,sounds weird when i play it anyway..And after that i realised that it had to be played without almost any pause so i think im going to remember the notes and play it quite smoothly from there.. And when that's done im going to declare it as mastered! Yeah!

Quite happy with my progress on Kiss The Rain.. About to finish the 1st page already!
My wrists used to hurt intially when i started on Kiss the Rain but then I saw a video on how they played it and eventually i realised the technique for it.. Lift ur damm hands into the air.. But still I decided to move my body with my hands instead since it sounds disconnected when i did try to lift my hands into the air.. It works for me so yeah..

Last thing I want to say. I do find it ridiclous when someone avoids a person because that someone knows that the person is stressed out because of him but by doing so that someone is stressing that person out even more because he thinks that he may have done something wrong to that someone unknowingly. That thought came into my mind today and i thought i'd share it with you guys.. Quite illogically expressed but idk..

I have to clean up my room today!!
Oh bother..That's very tiring if you have seen my room before..
That's all.
Byes!

2009-10-30T22:57:00.001-07:00

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Only stress source is quite incorrect otherwise everything is true at the time of posting it.

2009-10-28T23:45:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow is Friday!!! Friday means..Umm.. BEING THE SCHOOL'S CHEAP LABOUR!!!
OH YEAH WE'RE GONNA HAVE LOADS OF FUN CLEANING THE CLASSROOM UP AND IT COSTS THE SCHOOL NOTHING,HOW SMART OF THEM!!

Well,just kidding about the cheap labour part but personally i dont really mind cleaning up the classroom..I don't really find it a pain so yeah..
I must remember to bring rags and my maths textbook tomorrow or else i will be standing up for 2 periods which is ridiculously stupid. Yeah,I hope that by writing it here i will really remember.. Lols..

And i got my results back earlier than expected!
It's quite ok.. But i feel that it's very pathetic..
At 62.1% it seems like a score every other average pupil should be getting if they have been putting in decent effort into their studies..
9th position in class.. But sebastian got just 1% lower than me and he's at 16th in class.. Woah.. So so unfair..
Haix i wish that i could focus more on my studies but i often can't..
Especially Maths,i started to slack off and there you go,I failed.
Before that I was quite focused and did all my homework and was quite attentive in class so I got an A1 for Maths but now fail..
Luckily overall I got a B4.. So i think A.Maths is within reach.. :D
And i really hope i can get PoA as it's like a stepping stone to earning lots of money through buiness.. Lols.. Hahas!

Same as last year,Chinese A2,and the rest all B3s,B4s except for science which is C5 thanks to the retarded chemistry which i am so weak at!! AHHH!!

I've actually deproved but what can you expect from a boy who didnt put in much effort into his studies in the 1st place.

Gosh.. This is really stupid..
Oh and I just realised that if you want to buy ice lemon tea,try to buy Polka's ice lemon tea. I feel that it's really nice to drink!

Ok,that is all byebye!!
Lols!

2009-10-24T21:22:00.000-07:00

5 more days to hoildays!!!
Lols,although friday is judgement day as it's the day that we know if we're going to NA or remain in express but for me it's 100% that i will stay in express so it's like so pointless to me.. But i guess knowing where i stand in the class in terms of results is well,ok?

Everytime when it comes to holiday i will always be bored stiff..Having nothing to do but to eat sleep and play.. But this year it is different!!
Finally im learning a musicial instrument and it's really rewarding to master my favourite pieces!
Now,during the holidays i have something to focus about so that my time is not wasted.. To master piano!!

I've decided to try to master a difficult piece for my level and no it's not revolutionary etude or turkish march like for god's sake it's too hard already!!
So I've decided on Kiss The Rain. I wouldnt say that it's very difficult but it isnt easy.. Nice song actually..

My progress on this song now is like the 1st 5 bars already.. I started yesterday so I think so far so good..

Perhaps,my problem has been solved,she won't bother me anymore?
Somehow I think i've got my message through without actually telling her directly..
Hmm,that's good to think about at least..

I hope my piano lesson would arrive faster..
That important song is almost mastered.
Just 1 more part that i need to undersatnd better!!!

That's all I guess..
Byes~

2009-10-22T02:48:00.000-07:00

I think the new blogskin is ok.. But somehow its lacking something..
Nah,i might as well make my own blogskin then. Hahas but i dont have the time to learn..

Yes,this is really stupid.. Why is it that i seem to be overreacting to things..
But what i felt seems to be telling me that it's really something serious..
Unless it's telling me in advance that this could lead to something serious so that i could avoid it? Hmm..probably..

At least now i realised something..
Ok,that's all~
Byebyes~

2009-10-21T23:14:00.000-07:00

Wow.. Virtually almost correct to the point of 99%..

I took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test!

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And 1 more..Still very true but some part is ridiculous..I guess 1 quiz is not enough for all my compelete personalilty..

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Omg it's still very true.. I guess if you combine this 3 readings togther and what you'll get is a complete reading of what exactly im i going through now..

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2009-10-20T02:38:00.000-07:00

Haix... Im gonna shoot myself with a gun if I had one..
Results were HORRIBLE!!!!
Stupid retarded play!!! 52.2% for it..Jux passed but pulled down my overall Lit marks by ALOT!!
Sort of mad when I saw that i gt 8/20 for peer evaulation..What..Im that bad?!
Yeah sure i have a stupid attitude and the way i behave is so so childish that i totally deserved it~! (So what?! I dont care!)
For the written lit exam i gt 34/50!
Jux lucky..Section A getting 24/25! :D
But Essay done badly..10/25!
Stupid stupid stupid!! Simply because I relied on my feelings and i know it sounds retarded but i think i felt what the author was feeling when he probably wrote the poem down(obviously he didn't state his feelings when he wrote it) so i ended up not being very relavant to the question and the poem.. DAMM!

Chinese was ok..Overall score was 69%.. 2 more marks!!!! I waved goodbye to my A2..
Sort of sad to see him go though..But nvm..
For the first time in exams i got 27/50 for my compo!!! The theme given was hard and i had no idea how in the world am I going to start.. And no,im not going to start with "It was a dark and stormy night." That's so cliche.. My compo is not an old man!
Somehow I really regretted not listening in lessons..It's too late now to say anything..

For geog I got 71%! Hahas A2! Though I expected better.. It was easy really..

Maths was the worst! I failed my best subject! What an irony!
I guess it was my fault..I lost focus and determination to do my own homework and to really understand what in the world was the teacher really talking..
I can't really blame Mr Hider for his style of teaching that doesnt appeal to us..He really think too highly of us..I respect him for that but we can't read his mind!GOSH CAN'T HE EXPLAIN MORE! But i think i wouldnt be really listening so forget it..

I dont know if I should be happy for chemistry..Although I failed but I've improved..
35/80! JUST 5 MORE MARKS!!!! I should have trusted question 3.. I feel stupid when I see 3/20 for my chem essay.. Maybe,just maybe i could have gotten more if i had picked question 3..Sickening..

And today we had an assembly..3 guitar perfomance..
The 1st perfomance was Fall For You by Secondhand Seranade.
I just want to say that the singing was HORRIBLE,ARE THEY EVEN SINGING?!
I think could do better.. Really.. They were out of tune and rhythm..
If i were to sing it..It'll probably sound weird..I know,i've sang the song before,alone in my bathroom obviously..LOLS!

She keeps saying that her singing sucks..Well,she should see them sing..

2nd perfomance was 21 Guns by Green Day
Sound quality sucks big time! Otherwise I think it's fine..

3rd perfomance was Romance de amour
Quite boring..They seem to be repeating the same short 20second tune over and over again..Maybe it's just me,I don't really like the way they play the piece but it's personal opinon so nvm..
What makes it worst is that the sound quality was as bad as before..

So i think that's all..Lols..
This was supposed to be posted yesterday but my internet has some problems so nvm..

Today I got back my history,physics and D&T..
I got 58/100 for history!!! THAT SUCKS!!! I guess i didnt have enough time to write for things,i was practially rushing and writing whatever that comes to mind so i think i left out important details which costed me like 10marks?! And that's for only 1 structure essay! I had 4.. So overall lost like 20 odd marks..
Source based qns were surpisingly quite ok? I usually im bad at it so passing this section is perhaps lucky? I finished it in 15mins so i think i did well..

I PASSED D&T! MIRACLE! I thought i was going to fail but i passed!
27/40 is well,ok i guess..

For physics i got 68% for it..Tired to give details..Im just telling you my marks..
Though i wished that Mr Tseng would talk less and get to the point..Hahas..

That's all for today..
Goodbye~!

2009-10-18T03:28:00.000-07:00

Can I love you?
I feel like running away.

2009-10-17T18:52:00.000-07:00

Half of my misery is gone,the another half will come pretty soon..
Though Im happy that my exams are over! It's been hectic during the exam periods,I mean,2 papers in a day for consectives days is pretty tiring..
Well,the only good thing is that our exams finish earlier than the rest!!!
Hahas!

Well,there was this be yourself day on friday which I totally forgot about it!
And the charity bazzar which I was quite upset because I did not bring enough money to buy more things!!!!

I saw this really cute plush toy and I was quite suprised that it costs only $1!!
Since I had $2 i bought 1 more which was just as cute!!
It was a blue bear and a smiling bear!! Lols about bears,not that im a big fan of it but the bears are really cute!!
Actually I bought 1 more for a gift but on second thoughts i might as well buy a better one.

When I bought it everyone was like looking at me..So freaky..
Luckily I was carrying my bag..Phew..
In the speed of light I unzipped my bag and stuffed the 2 bears like illegal immigrants hiding in boats so that they would not be discovered and zipped it back.

Later I went up to the hall to play the piano but alas,they were faster!
It was so cool to see piano masters playing(lols exagggrating but they are really good!)
There was a guy who played the turkish march and ballade pour adeline and marriage de amour!! So cool!! All fast songs!!
Although he kept playing the marriage de amour most of the time lols..Quite sian actually..
I want to be as good or better than him someday!! Hahas Im sure i can do it!
After that I went home at 12. I didnt know I could go so early! Woot!

After I've listened to ballade pour adeline then I realised something..
I remember when i was young there was often something that was dying to be expressed.. It was a short melody played by an instrument which i didnt know the name at first(it was the piano,i now know) created by me in my head. Since I had no musical knowledge or an instrument I could only bear wif the fustration of it playing in my head only..And it felt incomplete and I couldnt continue this short melody.
Then,for a long time I gave up and decided to totally forget about it.

This year,I finally found the tune that was playing in my head all along.
Kiss the Rain. It felt like a relieve to finally hear the compelete version although only a small part was exactly what i had thought up..Lols,im not claiming credit or whatever..Relax..

Ballade pour adeline seems very famliar..It's like I've heard it somewhere before..
Really nice piece! But i think it's too fast for my level? tempo at 275bpm isnt easy but maybe playing it at around 140bpm would be okay but if i were to play i would have played at around 90bpm.. Too slow I guess..Haix..Nvm..Maybe next time..

Today im going to the library to search for that book,although it says that it's on loan,but im still going anyway! I won't give up!
I am foolish. But I want to take a chance. Because if it's meant to be,it's meant to be.

Wish me luck!

2009-10-12T19:54:00.000-07:00

D&T was terrible..Blame me for not studying..Lols..
I hate drawing la!!! Sian!!!
Otherwise there's nothing else le..
Kays,that's all..
Byebye :D

That unknown uncomfortable feeling had since faded away..

2009-10-11T19:20:00.000-07:00

Maths Paper 1 was easy!!!
But.. I had no time!!!!!
So..Im going to flunk both of my maths paper!
Therefore,buy me @cash to mend my poor broken soul!
Ok,just kidding but I'd be very happy if you do :D

Sometimes I feel that Im not doing enough..
Sometimes I wish I could do more..
Sometimes I..
I don't really know what Im exactly feeling but either way it means she's probably disappointed..
Perhaps Im not making any sense but what I'm feeling whenever I think of her recently never made sense in the 1st place..

Just thought of a lyric to my new song..(again)
Yeah I know that it probably sucks but this time,maybe i can transcribe it into piano.. Not sure how im going to do it but i think i have the bass part thought of already..

This a draft and is written to no beat and no music.

Titled:When a boy likes a girl

Verse 1:
When a boy likes a girl
He will promise to love her forever
He will promise to be with her all the time
He will show that he cares

Chorus:
Under the blue sky
There was a boy who felt the same
Despite it being one-sided
Hopes are still being harboured
And he never gave up

Verse 2:
When a boy likes a girl
He will always try to make her happy
He will give up his favourite toy because she said it was childish
Her hobbies becomes his hobby
He will stop running because she hates it
In the end,he'll just do everything in his power to make her happy

Outro:
I like you

2009-10-09T07:09:00.000-07:00

EoY is so tiring.. I changed my attitude towards exams after it.
English was ok..Better than expected!
I think i've written the best compo I've ever written for all the exams in my whole life lols..Maybe im exaggrating..Hahas!
It's about desperation and i wrote it in a way that shows desperation in different ways.
Desperate to be heard,desperate to be noticed,desperate to be loved and desperate to belong.
It's a sad compo and parallels my life at certain parts of it..Nvm..

Maths was like totally flunked le la..So nthing to say abt it..

Chinese was ok-ok..Was lucky to have thought of something for the compo.
Again,another sad compo. Too influenced by the English's compo. Lols..

Literature was generally ok until the essay part. Makes me so angry and sad.
It was about the Old Folks..
Abandoned by their family members and how ironic,strangers are the ones coming to do what a family member should do for the old folks!
Yet the students still don't really understand..They only remembered having fun!
That's what i felt.. And I felt sorry for the old folks too.
I don't think I'd abdandon my parents but I can't promise anything,people change,so do I.

History was wrist shattering.Frantically writing and writing and I was glad I could remember all the points! Phew!
It paid off as I had 5mins left to write my name.. :D

Physics was that easy,nothing much to say.

Chemistry was quite tricky,my head hurts and I was so irriated at the options for MCQs,So many possiblity!!!!!!Ahh!!!! Sure flunked le. No doubt about it.
Gt 1 qn about chromatography which i was so tempted to answer as something else.
They asked what does this says about the banned drugs used by the altheles.
I wanted to answer that the altheltes has no integrity and is a total loser for using banned drugs but decided not as i think the answer is stupid.

Still have D&T and Maths Paper 1,I hope i cn do well for it!!

That's all.

Byebye :D

2009-09-28T05:24:00.000-07:00

To be honest I found it pretty funny :D
Yeah,it's about crushes and I find this the most perfect point of view about it.

Today was my stupid lit performance..Lols..
Before that was pretty lame,especially music.
Gamelan?! Yeah,it's pronounced as Game-lan :D
If you believed that,then im sorry it's not.. xP
Sure,I beileve that the sec 1,full of happiness when they heard of Game-lan but they're going to be in for a big disapointment! Hahahahaha!!!!! Ok,lame joke..

Before the lit performance,I was quite nervous and my costume feels quite weird when I wear it although I feel that it looks ok on me..
The mask is a source of irriation,I hated wearing it..Yet,for 70%..Whatever goes..Haix..
And Calvin looks really really funny in his wig and dress!!!!
Worse is that he didnt shave his armpit hair,lols.. Digusting..

And finally,the perfomance started..
Everything was quite ok intially,maybe I didn't project my voice properly and pronounce words properly but I hope that it wouldnt affect the overall marks..

Then later..Maybe I wasn't that flexible enough..
Damm,should have just continued..
Stephen just forgot 1 line and I thought it'd be weird to continue so I added some lines to help him remember but it didnt work out as well as I planned..
And I ended up forgetting my lines and then I was like,damm,no way!
So I just went with my instinct and I missed out some lines and messed up some lines.. LOLS!
Oh,and,I had free drinks! Hahas,the beauty of Romeo of Juliet!!!!!!
Cos there was a servingman who had to serve drinks and this is the best role that everybody wants!
Why? Because you only need to remember 1 line!
"I don't know,Sir"
Or maybe,if you consider the knight as a role too,then this would be the perfect role ever!
There's no lines to remember! Dance with our dear Juilet,that's all~
(He's a guy and yes,he looks gross)

Okok,and finally it ended..So that's all..
I went to the canteen and decided to have fried noodles..
Hmm,actually,comparing it with it's other $2 meal counterpart,fried kuay teow,I've found that fried kuay teow is better! :D

So,I conclude my day from here..
And...Goodbye~!

2009-09-26T01:59:00.000-07:00

Lols,Im still posting.. Yeah,I dont care about my stupid exams..
Today CIP is stupid..
I wouldnt say it's a waste of my time..
Quite interesting to knock on doors and ask if there's any old newspaper and books to donate to us..
I didnt do much..Im a born slacker..But I dont mind doing all the work really..
In fact,I dont even care,I just do.. LOLS!

Quite dumb to squeeze into lifts when you could take the god damm stairs!!
Lazy ppl we have nowadays.. Hahas..
And im one of them!
They'd rather suffer a canned tuna's fate thn to walk up the stairs 12 storeys up..(ok fine,maybe it's better to take the lift since it's 12 FREAKIN STOREYS FOR GOD'S SAKE!) *lazy thinking mode*

I've found that Singapore loves dogs since I keep hearing dogs barking!
No they are not cute at all!!! (just kidding,SWEAR!!)
To be honest,they are cute but their barking makes them,fierce and hardly cute..
I kept forgetting saying good morning to people whom I was asking newspaper for..
Luckily they are kind and wonderful people who didnt seem offended.. :D

I was shocked to find a mini bungalow in a HDB flat!!!
Meh,I was like,HOLY,WTF,IS THIS EVEN POSSIBLE?!
I wish my house was like that too..
Although on second thoughts,nah..
Don't wanna die falling off the staircase or becoming an idiot cos of it hah!

Something's weird though,I felt my skin burning at some point of time..
Glad that it's ok now :D

The finale was some idiotic phototaking and we went home :D

Boring finish,although it's forgiven for a boring intro anyway..

That's all~!
Bye~

2009-09-24T06:04:00.000-07:00

这感觉已经不对
我努力在挽回
一些些应该体贴的感觉我没给
你嘟嘴许的愿望很卑微
在妥协是我忽略
你不过要人陪

哦这感觉已经不对
我最后才了解
一页页不忍翻阅的情节
你好累
你默背为我掉过几次泪
多憔悴
而我心碎你受罪
你的美
我不配

2009-09-22T06:01:00.000-07:00

Exams are coming..Haix..
Have to study but I don't really feel like studying..Lols..
Will my miracle memory and pure understanding save my day this time?
I hope it will,if it doesnt then it's goodbye to alot of things...Hahas..
And I still can laugh in spite of this..Weird huh?

Not gonna post much untill the exams are over.
Like I even post much in the 1st place..

Ok,that's all.
Goodbye.

Last thing I have to say,I hate exams.
Yet,there's always a good side to things and Im looking at that good side.

2009-09-18T02:02:00.000-07:00

I got my keyboard yesterday!!! So Happy!!
Even though it's 61keys only,still it's good enough already :D

Friday was insane really.
During PE we had to run "1" round outside of school.
Shouldn't have really ran so hard for the first round because when I finished the first round,came in 2nd,the teacher said,run 1 more round!(2round=2.4km)
NOOOO!!!!
I was very tired already,yet I still continue to choing untill I really cannot le..
Yeah,I love running and I'll run until I can't go on which was quite fatal later on.
Finished 4th. No timing. Aww...
When I came back to school,the PE teachers was pretty upset that some lazy bums just walked the whole thing?!
So we had to do push ups! MY ARMS ARE HURTING AND I CAN'T STAND IT ANYMORE!
Now I know what it means when they say a second seems to last forever.
I can see my sweat literally dripping to the ground lols...
Finally,we finished this hell with 1 more round around the school..
Was sprinting but Im quite upset that I couldnt continue going at top speed halfway through.. My stamina must have deproved alot... Haix..
Finally we're done with PE (yay!)

Always drink 100plus if you have pushed yourself too hard during PE.
Lols it's just a suggestion but it's refreshing though!
Gulped down 1 bottle of ice lemon tea and 1 cup of 100plus lols..
I must have pushed myself too hard..

Maths for once was quite interesting as I've finally learnt how to solve a question which has been bothering me for 3 whole years!! Whee!!

Got back my Term 3 result slip
I think it's ok.
All pass and 2As,I could do better..
That's all for Friday.
I shall go and practise my piano now.

Byebye~ :P

______________________________

My last guitar song,the orginal chords and lyrics that I wanted to write for someone.
Unfortunately I got pretty influenced by the outside energies.
Therefore titled,It's Nothing But a Dream.

Here I present you,the orginal song.

Titled:I still love you
Intro:E

(Em throughout the verses)

Verse 1:

It's been Forever
Im still watching myself
Loving you
Wished you felt the same

Bridge:
Em/D
But I understand that
Loving you means keeping you happy no matter what
As long as you're happy
Im happy

Chorus:
Bm
Even if you're so far away
A
Even if you don't belong with me
D
Perhaps we were not meant be
Em
But I still love you

Verse 2:

When I look into the sky
I think of you everytime,wondering why
How I want to ask again
Did you ever love me?

Bridge

Chorus x2

Solo x3
Am,A5,Em/D,Em

Chorus x2

Outro E,Em,Em/D

Long ago there was a guy who loved you so much
But the wind blew on
Widening the distance
It's diffcult but (I) still have one more day to love you
But it seemed that at the very end
It's still goodbye

2009-09-16T05:17:00.000-07:00

Ok ok back to the real world.. Lols..

Wednesday quite boring actually..
History was just me pretending to be listening while daydreaming :D
Maths was abit different since he gave us a worksheet to do and it was pretty easy except for 1 qn which I didnt know how to do..

Chinese was practically a chance to sleep! But I was actually attempting that qn which I didnt know how to do. Gave up after Chinese. Unless someone enlighten me,I just can't do it.
Reccess. Daniel is always so stressed..I hope he won't suffer from a breakdown.

During art we had to lay out our sunset paintings.
I was so ashamed with myself.
The other sunset paintings was so so much better than mine..
But still,when you consider the fact that I hardly put in any effort into it since I had the impression that the sunset had to be drawn with just a circle and a line,that's ok.
What's worse was that the people who did their sunset painting anyhow still can be considered as special makes me wanna cry..
Then we had a lecture on paper sculpture,seeing all those artworks made from paper makes me wanna just scream,PRO!
The artist actually folded paper into something very small and detailed!

Later,Mr Lim told us about some really gross accidents that happened when they were using the artist knife while sculpting.
I will not go into details,besides,because of my brain's natural instinct to prevent me from freaking out every now and then,I've forgotten almost all about it.
Although I remember 1 part of it,the blade went through someone's thumb by accident,yes,from the nail right through into the skin.
Hmm,ok,1 more that I remember is that a small part of the blade was accidently chipped off because he was cutting too fast,it went into his eye.
No,he did not go blind,because it landed at the side,lucky kid.
And Mr Lim still said that the blood was flowing like a musical fountain and when he brought her down to the sick bay,the blood was dripping like environmental art..
WTH LOLS,THAT HAS GOTTA TO BE THE MOST EPIC QUOTE YET!
This was scary and that was all for art.

English was just doing practise passage 9 which was quite hard.

And yes,Lit rehearsal is a total pain in the ass!
Miraclously,I memorised almost all my lines in 2 weeks without even trying very hard to.
Sometimes I just can't remember but most of the time I am able to.
If you ask me now whether I can read out my lines by memory,yes.
Ask me tomorrow and the answer may be no. It's pretty unstable but that's the side-effects when you DIDNT EVEN TRY TO REMEMBER THE LINES! Lols the Caps was for dramatic effect.

That's all for Wednesday.
18 days more to EoY.
I hate him for even reminding me!
Make me so stress,somemore write on WhiteBoard!
Mock Geog Test tomorrow..
Wish me luck ~ xP
Byebye :D

2009-09-14T06:24:00.000-07:00

It has been a long time since I finally posted something decent.

I was quite sad that the hoildays were over but still there's nothing I can do about it..

The day before..

"My HOMEWORK!! ARGHH,MATHS!! WHY SUDDENLY APPEAR OUT QN15 WHICH I HAVE NOT DONE YET!!!!!!!%!@&*#**&# LIT!!! LINES!!! HEAD HURTS!!!! COSTUMES,WHAT TO WEAR?!!!"
*procceds to bang head on wall and throw out lightning speed punches after banging head*
Ok,that was lame but it was somehow like that yesterday without the lightning speed punches and the head banging.. Lols..

On Monday..

PHYSICS WAS CRAZY!! Having to endure evil chanting that puts me to sleep is tough job!! Luckily my power is strong enough to keep up from being controlled by the evil Mr Tseng!!! Also he used Fists of Ohm's Theory! Alot of people were either put to sleep by him or were badly injured by him! I was frantically dodging and reflecting the fists! Thank god he ran out of power soon enough and I had enough time to rest..
It went on until the Saviour Bell rang!!!

The Saviour Bell was a bell that forces a teacher to leave..
Unfortunately,it will only ring once every 45mins..

Luckily we had some survivors and we were able to heal up some people during Maths since a relief teacher came in,he meant no harm and for once were we glad!

The most coveted period,recess.
Although alot of people were severely injured during Physics,yet reccess allows for total healing,if there was no recess,we would have lost our life!

Now,we jump in into Chemistry.
Mrs Eng was using her supersonic scream and her deadly skill,Facade!
Facade enables her to lower our defenses and then she will finish with supersonic!
I was totally suffering,her sonic screams kept hitting me and yet I was not able to fully defend myself from it since her Facade had already lowered my defenses!
Amos had suffered the most since he was totally rendered defenseless by Mrs Eng,I think he almost lost his life..
Luckily Sevester had used his Foresight and saw through what Mrs Eng next move,to chain her sonic scream towards Sevester and Kai Hong to hit 2 person with 1 blow..
Benjamin was lucky to be blessed with Wonder Guard,no special attacks may hit him!
That is why Benjamin is immune to school.. And is able to constantly survive waves of attacks by the teachers..
Adam had access to one of the most powerful mode yet,sacrasm aura.
It's ability to reverse the attacks towards the teacher has proven to be real effective.
The previous encouter with Mr Lim had shown it.
He was using sacrasm swords towards Adam,usually,this would have rendered any protection useless but Adam had reversed it towards Mr Lim..
But then it got neutralised due the strongest protection that the teacher has,Authority Guard.
No attacks can ever get through it! If not,we would have taken care of the teacher's so easily.
As for me,using Hidden Amour and Ninja Skills has worked very well but sometimes teachers are able to see through it..
Saviour Bell finally rang and the menace Mrs Eng left.

Perhaps,Im just lucky,but Chinese was an excellent period to heal.
Mr Pan was weak and was totally overpowered by us,Students!
The only period that we had total control on! Oh,the glory!
But the worst has yet to come..

English! Mrs Hariz was truly a master!
Her deadly skills,Puppet and Authority Aura.
Authority Aura renders all protection useless and Puppet allows for total control of our SKILLS!
Only Adam's scarasm aura were able to defend ifself from Puppet but still it was quite futilte as he could not do anything but keep his sanity intact..
We were totally spellbound by her and we were totally dominated by her..
After suffering for what seem like eternity..TRY BEING FORCED WRITING HER EVIL CHARMS FOR A LONG LONG TIME!!!!

The saviour bell rang for the last time.. The hell ended.
I survived. I made it.

Tomorrow would be another hell.
Yet I relish the challenge..

That's all.
Bye!

2009-09-10T05:28:00.000-07:00

Hmm,i'll shamelessly finish/edit someone's song thn xP
Since Im that lame xP
Yeah,Gotta admit,I may have totally changed the intended meaning of her song,Hah!
Credits: http://my-beautifulillusion.blogspot.com
And me of course for the chords and verse xP

Titled:Fallen Hearts

C
It starts with.. One..

Em throughout the verses

Verse 1:
Time
When we were in love
Someone had to come
And someone have to go
Me

Chorus:(Will decide on the chords later)
Falling
But nobody's there
To catch me
Why is this my fate?
I've had enough hurt
To last me an eternity

Inside of me
Though my face hides the truth
My heart is breaking
But nobody's picking the pieces
Of my heart
Of my heart..

C
It starts with..One..

Verse 2:
Chance
To be in love
A promised hope
Of a future together
Reailty,often cruel
It has taught me
True love
Will only belong in fairytales

Chorus x2

Outro:E

2009-09-08T08:30:00.000-07:00

Just gotta write it down..A symptom of boredness..

Titled:Eternal Sorrow

Verse 1:
I was wrong
All along
Wished I could
Turn back the time
Erase the pain

Chorus:
Now you're gone
Leaving me
All alone
This was
What I deserved
And I've got no excuses

Verse 2:
Inflicted pain
To someone I loved
If we
Were never meant to be
Then she wouldnt be hurt

Verse 3:
Why didnt I cherish her
It was a mistake
Hopeless apologies
Will never mend the wounds

Just bored -.-"

Actually it was because of something..

I feel really guilty..

2009-09-08T08:11:00.000-07:00

Holidays are less boring when you have an musical instrument :D
I think I'll finish my maths homework today,then my sunset painting and chem ws tomorrow..
There..Almost done.. Leaving me with Learning logs..
In 2 days i'll finish all my homework.. :D
Take that! To all of those who are complaining!

Ok,holidays are often boring and usually I have nothing to say about it..
Went to karaoke on sunday..
Haix..It's always the rthyhm.. My voice was okay?
Except probably boring and no tune since I didnt really sing decently as I just ate..
Lols,excuses? But I have a weak stomach and cant eat alot of things at once..
But I still do..Heck,Im stupid,Shoot me xP

Being the dumbass,I sang a particular song 3times!
I pity my poor parents and my brother for suffering my horrible singing..
Only 2 songs which I sang was decent cos finally I remembered to sing with my stomach.. Lols like wtf?! After 2.5hours,yes,Im slow in realising things..

Other than that,there's nothing else.. So..
Goodbye~

2009-09-07T01:51:00.000-07:00

Finally done..
This is defintely the 1st song I've ever composed..
I know that it's probably crappy but still,Im just a newbie so go easy yeah..

Titled:Its Nothing but a Dream

Intro:Am,C,Em

Verse 1:

E
Fallen asleep
D
Pictured a scene
A
You and me under
Em
A Heart shaped tree

Pre chorus 1
Am
Waking up,waking up
C
Let me continue to sleep..

Em/D

Chorus:

G#sus4
I really wanna be with you
(Not in my dreams..)
B
Hold you tight
(Not in my dreams..)
Esus4
If only this was real
A
If only this wasn't a dream

Em/D

Verse 2:

E
Reality,kept me awake
D
Illusions,puts me to sleep
A
Again I see you with me
Em
Under a heart shaped tree

Pre-chorus 2

Am
Holding on,holding on
C
Let me continue,holding onto nothing

Chorus x2

Solo x3
Am,A5,Em/D,Em

Pre-chorus 3:

E
Perhaps this was nothing but a dream
Em/D
But im just waiting for dreams to become real

Chorus x2

A
If only this wasnt a dream x3

Outro:E,Em,Em/D

I understand now
This was nothing but a dream

2009-09-05T05:38:00.000-07:00

Finally my semptember hoildays are here!!!

First thing I want to do is to sleep as much as I want

Next thing is to finish all my homework

Lastly,to study for EOY so that i hv a higher chance of getting my keyboard!!!

Ok,today while playing around with the guitar i just came up with a song..
But i havent write the lyrics for it yet..
So here are the chords for now..
An unfinished version I guess.

Intro:C,Em
Verse:E,D,A,Em
Chorus:G#sus4,B,Esus4,A

Still experiementing with the bridge..
Otherwise that's all..
There arent really alot to mention on holidays..
Goodbye~

EDIT(6/09/2009):Perhaps for the bridge it'll be
A5,Em,G or A5,Am,Em,G
Still working on the lyrics..
Ok,that's all~

EDIT(7/09/2009)
Ok,solo part,lols.
Am,A5,Em/D,Em

And some other changes.

Intro:C,Am,Em
Verse:E,A,D,Em x2 (no change)
Chorus:G#sus4,B,Esus4,A,Em/D
Outro:E,Em,Em/D

Lyrics will be up tomorrow and from there i'll declare it as finished.
Im just so bored from holidays~
Hehehe~~

2009-09-03T23:05:00.000-07:00

Beautiful video. Is this my fate?

2009-09-01T04:03:00.000-07:00

Wow,this year's teacher's day celebration is..
I don't know.
Erm,although my ear was suffering..
I think that one of the singer went off pitch which really hurt my ear alot.
And also,perhaps im unlucky,behind me,there are malay girls who screamed at a pitch so high my ear was probably begging them to stop this hell.

Some songs were nice though,like Guardian Angel and Im Yours if i remember the names correctly.

Other than that,it's pretty ok.
Im so gonna hate the school for having lessons in teacher's day!!!
Released at 1. My brother at 10+?!
Damm it.

Was considering going back to primary school..
But I decided nah..
Waste of time.
Painful memories resides there.

If I had more courage to fight back,who knows,things would have been so different..

Random picture:Highest score in Audi I've achieved
Not showing off or whatever,just posting for the sake of fun

Bye.

2009-08-28T07:33:00.000-07:00

It's been ages since I posted something proper.
So here we go.
Friday was weird I guess..
Umm,im the captain for the inter-class badminton team?!
So ironic..Noob in badminton can become captain..
Lols..

Learned about sets in Maths.
Boring and easy..
It's about grouping stuffs,nothing hard in it,at least not yet.

Then I don't know why Alston threw Asri's pencilbox in the middle of the lesson and Mr Hider screamed,I mean,literally screamed at Alston,even I felt quite afraid,yah im such a mouse la,cant hlp it...

I think this was what happened
(Note:This is only purely my own imagination and is not 100% true,dont read it if you would feel offended.)

Asri:Alston,are you hard up on money recently?
Alston:No why?
Asri:Cos ur pencilbox looks like shit man,can't you even afford a pencilbox that at least looks like my towel bowl?
Alston:What?!
Asri:I mean,my toilet bowl is really artistic,I can't wait for nature's call to come with this toilet bowl in my house!
Alston:So? I don't care! Go away bitch!
Asri:Come on man,doesn't your mother cares about how shitty your pencilbox is? I think that ur mother is either blind or is just plain stupid,she can't hardly match up to my mum,who is so cool,look at my pencilbox,it is so freakin cool,and my mum picked that pencilbox for me,that means that my mum is better than your mum! Woot!
Alston:You think you very funny? *throws Asri's pencilbox*

I don't think it's funny,but hey,that's just how I interpret the cause for this incident.
Ok,next we had CCD and we had the career options thingy.
Other than that,there's really nothing else about Friday.

Oh,how about Thursday then?
Well,there's D&T and we have to create a stationery holder..
My room is messy enough..Do I really need this -.-"
I seriously don't have space for it when it's like 15x30cm,I only have space for like 6x6cm since majority of my desk's space is occupied by my radio,and my whole stack of textbooks/worksheets/workbooks filling up the remaining space..

Draft 1:Lols,so weird..This was thought of when I heard mdm teo saying something about breaking the parts of the chair apart and transform it into the pencilbox holder. And of course the nicely drawn chair on the right was by mr loy when he saw how ugly my chair initially was,and so he drew a nice chair for me as a reference,see,teachers are kind^^

^^

Ok,I hope I'd really get a chance to create this!
But still,have to ask my partner's opinon and most likely we'll merge both of our designs together..Wonder how it'd look like..
Lols..

Defintely flunked my history test.
Hope to get high marks for geog test again^^
Was lucky for maths test as Mr Hider pointed out all my careless mistakes..
I thank him personally here^^
Or else I would have fail and I'd probably feel like stabbing the paper in rage again when I receive it again..
Unlucky in Lit test,12/25!! Well,I only mentioned 1 point,I REALLY THOUGHT ONLY 1 POINT LEHX!! HAIX!!!
Otherwise can get better de lor..
Sian..

That's all for my week.
And don't you hate it when you feel like everything's spiralling downwards..
Im sure I left a really negative impression towards somebody..
He/She is such arrogant and condecending mortals that I don't care.

Song of the week:Good Charlotte-I Just Wanna Live

Lyrics:I need an alarm system in my house
So I know when people are creepin' about
These people are freakin' me out (these days)
It's getting hectic everywhere that I go
They won't leave me alone
There's things they all wanna know
I'm paranoid about the people I meet
Why are they talkin' to me
And why can't anyone see

I just wanna live
Don't really care about the things that they say
Don't really care about what happens to me
I just wanna live

Just wanna live (6x)

I rock a law suit when I'm goin' to court
A white suit when I'm getting divorced
A black suit at the funeral home
and my birthday suit when I'm home alone
talking on the phone
Got an interview with the Rolling Stone
They're sayin' "Now you're rich and now you're famous
fake ass girls all know your name and
Lifestyles of the Rich and Famous,
Your first hit it, aren't you ashamed
Of the life, of the life, of the life We're livin"

I just wanna live
Don't really care about the things that they say
Don't really care about what happens to me
I just wanna live

Stop the messin' around boy
Better think of your future
Better make some good plans boy
Said every one of my teachers
Look out, you better play it safe
You never know what hard times will come your way
We say, where we're comin' from
We've already seen the worst that this life can bring

Now we expect it everywhere that we go
All the things that they say
Yeah we already know

I just wanna live
Don't really care about the things that they say
Don't really care about what happens to me

(Just wanna live [3x])

I just wanna live
(just wanna live [3x])
I just wanna live
(just wanna live [3x])
Don't really care about the things that they say
(just wanna live [3x])
Don't really care about what happens to me
I just wanna live

Goodbyes^^

2009-08-27T23:01:00.000-07:00

I let it go.

Who cares.

2009-08-26T04:50:00.000-07:00

Titled:Lost(Within me)

Everyday I face the world
Suddenly,I don't know
Who am I?
Im feeling so lost
Unsure of my next step
I wander aimlessly

No direction in sight
In spite of my plight
Not even a ray of light
Would end this night

Where should I be now?
I wish to belong
But the night is so long
Light,I beg for
Until then
I can't understand how to be me

No direction in sight
In spite of my plight
Not even a ray of light
Would end this night

People see me as weird
Because they do not understand me
But it's ok
Even I don't understand myself

I really want to search for myself
But the dark skies..
Where'd you go?
It's been forever..
Allow me to belong

IM SO LOST!!!
____________________________________________

Today I Flunked debate
I know that in your eyes im such a loser
You hate me
I felt so depressed
Nothing feels like it's worth it anymore
I wish to rest
Leave me alone
It's all my fault
Even if it isnt
JUST TAKE IT AS MY FAULT
YA YA YA,ALL MY FAULT
MY f***** PROBLEM

2009-08-25T04:16:00.001-07:00

Titled:It's goodbye

Remembering yesterday
Looked up into the sky
I wonder why
This can't be real?
I've decided
It has to be done
Im sorry

I close my eyes
Submerged in the darkness
Untill sunrise
It's goodbye

I looked at you
Hoping the words would come easily
Struggling
Although my heart broke into two
When I said those words
But it's for your own good

I close my eyes
Submerged in the darkness
Untill sunrise
It's goodbye

You begged me to stay
You begged me to keep my promise
Although I said I'd be with you
Forever
But I don't want you to cry for me anymore
Im sorry

I close my eyes
Submerged in the darkness
Untill sunrise
It's goodbye

2009-08-23T05:03:00.000-07:00

Titled:I still love you

It's been forever
Before you finally broke the news to me
You've found your love
Although I tried real hard not to cry
Yet the tears keep flowing
Im not supposed to be sad
But when my hopes began to sank
Six feet underwater
It's ok,someone said to me

Just think about how happy she will be
And be happy for her
For love is not about keeping her beside you
It's about making her happy no matter what

Even if you're so far away from me
Even if you're not meant to be
Even if you don't belong with me
I still love you

Then,one day,I saw you lying in a hospital
You were unconcious
I remembered a question you asked me when I confessed my love for you
What was my reason for my I love you?
When I couldnt answer
You said that my love was a lie
But I insisted that my love for you was true

Once,I heard your love telling you why he loved you
He said that he loved your smile
He said that he loved the way you understood him
He said he loved your sweet voice
But when you're unconcious,can you still speak?
Can you still smile?
Can you still express yourself?
Does that mean I shouldn't love you anymore?

For loving you needs no reason
And if there's a reason then I guess it's your very existence

Even if you're so far away from me
Even if you're not meant to be
Even if you don't belong with me
I still love you

Even when Im lying in my grave seven feet under
You'll always be the one for me
I'll always love you till the end

Even if you remain asleep forever
You're still as beautiful to me
I still love you

Even if you're so far away from me
Even if you're not meant to be
Even if you don't belong with me
I still love you
I still love you
I still love you

Eternally yours

2009-08-22T06:11:00.000-07:00

Wow,I almost forgot that there was a subject allocation talk today..
Supposed to reach school by 8.45am but..
Hey,I woke up at 8.55am and I was like OMG,OMG IM GOING TO BE SO LATE,SURE DETENTION LIAO LA,WAH LAO EH!!@##$

I didnt even brush my teeth lols,i jux changed frm pjyamas to uniform and ran to school le..
But my mum insisted that I drink my cup of milo 1st..Lols
Gulped it down real fast,like 10seconds? Thank god that the milo isnt that hot..

My stamina like deproved alot le..Felt quite breathless when running to school..
Maybe I didnt hv enough energy? I didnt eat breakfast..
Ok,Im going to be real positive,i jux didnt eat enough,that's y :D
Reached school in 10mins,so glad that I didnt need to bring anything,otherwise it would hv been much longer..

Luckily,when I reached school,I was like,no prefects? No one to tell me that im late and i hv to go to detention? It's my lucky day! Woot!!!
Went up to the hall and was quite surprised that it was just about to begin only..
What a lucky day! Hehe :D

The talk wasnt that boring as I thought..
It was about the explaining the subjects that we would be able to choose next year.
So glad there was a option of Biology/Physics
I totally suck in chemistry..I failed my chemistry paper..
Even for common test..That's how pathetic I am in chemistry..

Yes,my favourite subject that I would be able to choose next year,PoA
It means,Princples of Accounts.
Through it,I can learn about businesses,finacial stuffs and erm,earn alot of money someday..
I don't really have a dream,all I think I can do is earn alot of money and make the ppl I love happy and secure..

I was quite shocked when there's a literature in mother tongue...
Wow,I hate chinese already..NO WAY I'LL EVER TAKE LIT IN MT!
It's ironic how I hate chinese but yet I got an A2 for it..Lols..
I find it painful to even write a compostion in chinese(if it's in english im perfectly ok with it^^) and you expect me to understand novels and poems?! That's really stupid..
I bet that 90% of Evergreen's student will never choose this as their subject next year.. Hah!

Anyway,there was also Additional Maths,which is real scary!
He showed us some A.Maths equations which was so long and confusing..
Imagine that appearing on my EoY Maths Paper.
Murder me pls..
It's like a upgraded version of what we learnt about algebra,like expansion and solving algebraic equations..
Now I have second thoughts about taking A.Maths..Lols..

And there's something about the req for D&T which seem to be sort of describing me..
Like,love to explore things,I pressed all the buttons for a DVD player when I was a toddler in the hope of understanding it,and lifting girl's skirt during nursery to find out what's under it,im so pervertic..Lols..Hahas..

The rest were abit dry..So yeah..
Walked home slowly after that..
It's so nice taking a stroll..Lols..
And the weather isnt that hot :D

Ok,that's all,bye^^

2009-08-21T20:53:00.000-07:00

Why 2Achieve is lagging behind?
As promised,here are my views.

Lack of Motiavtion
-Studying just doesnt feel like it's worth it.

Laziness
-Yeah,you get the point.

And for maths,it's simply because of the teacher.
He just gives the answers without any explaintions.
Sometimes,he's ok-ok
So I ended up being ok in pyramids and circles but bad in trigonometry and graphs..
And we didnt do his homework is because he gives the answers straight and so we can just copy the answers and pass it up as if we did it already.Yes,I did that.

I don't care about Chinese since whether I listen or not,I get an A2,if not a pass
And his lesson is boring

I know,it's not even worth calling it an essay,rather,call it trash if you want.
Im just bored.

Wish he could just fuck off
Bye.

2009-08-18T06:07:00.000-07:00

We shall let him off this time,a trouble that could be avoided is worth avoiding,next time,it will not be that easy. -Alpine

Friday isnt really worth mentioning..Really..
Except for the fact that we got treated to pizza after school by miss yong!
The pizza is quite nice,I must say :D

Played an interesting variation of Catching,quite confusing..
Luckily I managed to have a shot at it..
He was too slow(for me),I caught him easily.. :P
I dont remember how it was being played but if my memory serves me correctly we were arranged in a star formation and I forgot the rest,that's why I said it was confusing..

And 95% of the class did not do their maths homework,so for once I was relieved to forgot my maths homework,well,actually,if it wasnt for the fact that I left my maths textbook at home,I would hv finished it! But still,my fault for not bothering.. Fine..
And we were so unlucky to have Mr Chan to be lecturing us..
And a few ppl was called down to the office by him..Unlucky..
I was lucky :D
But we had to stand for 25mins listening to him!!! My legs,surprisingly,wasnt that tired but during CCD when it was Miss Yong's turn to lecture us did my leg felt the tiredness..Lols

I do have alot to say why 2Achieve is the worst class,EVER! In terms of results ofc..
(Miss yong asked that question during CCD,while we were standing..MY LEGS ARE TIRED FOR GOD'S SAKE!!)
Why is it that even with my score of 64.1%(which isnt very good tbh),I finished 3rd in class?
This shows alot about this class,really.
Should I be happy that I could finally get my $200 reward for being in the top 3 position in class? Yes,yes,I CAN FINALLY GET A KEYBOARD!#%$^^$#@

I shall not start a freakin essay about why 2achieve is lagging behind the other classes.
Why? Because of some senstive people out there who would probably come after me if they do read this.

Ok,I've decided,this is my blog,so if you're going to be offended by my views,then it's your problem.

Being polite,unlike some people,who uses vulgarites,who has a freakin problem with me,and if you piss me off,I'll consider bringing 2Achieve's tagboard down.
Im not joking,I've brought down 1ITG'08's tagboard,so what makes u think I cant do the same to 2Achieve's tagboard?
But that's only if you really really piss me off,im actually quite hard to be pissed off,so relax :P

Anyway,I'll post my views tomorrow,so stay tuned ^^
It's getting late..And the date/time of posting in my blog is pretty much screwed..
Oh,and,not alot of people reads my blog,so Im pretty happy to be able to say what I like without offending alot of ppl.
Yeah,like that stinky ass Bobo would read my blog? Don't make me laugh,seriously.

Oh,and I finally know how to play the intro of Kiss the Rain!!
(it's just 4notes..Im just being lame..But still,the 4flats key signature is confusing me..)

Ok,that's all for Friday.
Byebye^^

2009-08-17T05:37:00.000-07:00

Monday was so boring..
I was either yawning all the way or daydreaming..
Im so tired..Lols,dont know why..
So glad that English was practically a free period since Mrs Hariz wasnt here..
But still need do practise paper 1 which I finished with ease..
Heck,there was a literature test after school which was easy and I didnt really study for it.. Lols.. The power of understanding!! :D

Tomorrow still need stay back!!!
Stupid Maths remedial,and I got A1 for it!!

And that reminds me,nothing happened..
He was just some bitch who makes empty threats..
I feel like I've been made fun of..
Although that shouldn't be the case..
Anyway,to me,he's just a wimp who act as if he's so tough but so scared on the inside
Being polite I shan't insult him with loads of vulgarities like he does to me..
That's the difference between me and him.

Anyway,that's all for Monday and loads of tests still coming up..
Sian..
Lols,and during my piano lesson..
I asked.
Yiruma-Kiss the Rain(too hard,skip,damm the double treble clefs and 4flats!)
Yiruma-River flows in you(Grade 3)
Linkin Park-Crawling(intro still can,after that cannot -.-")

Didnt ask about First Love but i think that it would end up as the same fate as Kiss the Rain.. Lols..
Take a look at the notes and you'll know..

Ok,that's all from me..
Bye!

2009-08-15T02:01:00.000-07:00

Am surprised that it's like 80% true..Wow!

The link which i did the quiz

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

2009-08-13T22:27:00.000-07:00

My history test was so easy!!!
Phew.. I didnt really need to memorise..
Just understand and it'll naturally come,for me,that is xP
Although there wasnt enough time..Oh well,just 1 more sentence only..Hahas

I think Im finally improving in badminton..Heh~
Well,that's what you get when you play twice a week for PE..Lols

Hmm,im so screwed up for debate..
And some clown is threatening me,well,I'll shove my speech right in ur face,clown
Right in your face,oh,since im so kind,I'll include counterpoints and all of propostion's points rebutted which will save you 1mins of coming up with the rebuttal...
Yeah,somehow,this isnt good,my hands are trembling at this point of time when im typing my post,yet I have no reason to be afraid,could this be a warning...
Hmm..Let's just see what happens on monday..

I'll keep you posted,the epic battle between clown and animator on monday :D
Stay tune folks!
Till then..
Bye^^

2009-08-13T05:49:00.000-07:00

Wow,so many tests are coming up..
There's even a history test coming up tomorrow..Lols..
I studied abit for the history test..
I just seem to remember everything..
So I feel that there wasnt really a need but maybe I overestimated myself..

And yes,Tuesday's PE was about badminton again..
Cant we go for runs instead! Hahas~ :D
Yeah,I suck in badminton..
Only redeeming factor was that I can serve the shuttlecock decently,well, at least Im not a total loser in badminton,although a few years back I cant even hit the shuttlecock..Well,guessed I improved thn^^

And there was also a Geography Test which was surprisingly easy..
I was quite surprised myself when I could remember the landfill methods,6 in total :D
Heh,Im so proud of myself in remembering it within 45mins! Thanks to the pictures of course..
After that there was a Maths test,to be exact,competition.
The 1st qn made me laugh,it's like 1+1=2!
The last time I remember seeing this type of questions was in p2?
But it got harder and harder so I guess it's pretty balanced..
Last 3 qns was so hard that I made numbers up..
Qn 30,my answer was,999 :D
Epic in my own humble opnion ^^

I had a headache after that..
And I felt like vomiting,but nothing came out so relax :D
I always feel like this when I remember too much things at once,worsen by cracking my brain at solving maths questions..

And,today,I realised how fun was my new role was,Lord Capulet!
There was a rehearsal during lit lesson and we had to act out our roles,but i forgot to bring my script,luckily we could share the script..Phew xP
I really had fun acting him out,man,I was acting him in such a weird,funny accent..
And it was so embrassing facing the wrong direction while acting,reading from the script so there wasnt any body language..Lols..
I think that I looked like a retard while acting..
But whatever,I had fun and that's enough ^^

I wonder why I get so hungry so easily lately..
Cant resist the temptation to eat during recess instead of going to library..
Haix..What's wrong with me..
I stil save money for keyboard!!!! Grr..

Oh,and I finally found the perfect instrumental to write the lyrics that has been floating in my head recently..
Yiruma-Kiss The Rain <3
I found the song familar..Forget it,I find alot of things famliar anyway..
Maybe I won't write it yet..
Ok,that's all..
Goodbye^^

2009-08-10T05:37:00.000-07:00

Apocalyptica Feat. Adam Gontier-I Don't Care

I try to make it through my life.
In my way, there's you
I try to make it through these lies.
And thats all I do.

Just dont deny it
Dont try and fight this
and deal with it
and thats just part of it.

If you were dead or still alive
I dont care
I dont care
Just go and leave this all behind
'Cause I swear (I swear)
I dont care

I try to make you see my side
I always try to stay in line
But your eyes see right through,
Thats all they do.

Im getting buried in this place
I got no room, you're in my face
Dont say anything, just go away

(violin solo)

Im changing everything
'cause you wont be there for me

Im changing everything
'cause you wont be there for me

Yes,In your face.
Since you wont be reading this.
It's for u,Bobo xP
Heh! :D

2009-08-09T21:30:00.001-07:00

I was simply scaring myself..
Paranoid -.-"
I guess it overtakes me sometimes..

EDIT:Happy birthday,Singapore! I forgot. Hit me xP

Hahas,played block catching and soccer ytd.. :D
Run and run and run!! Love it!

Thn soccer,stupid wan lor
Cheat wan..
Supposed to be score de,thn make up stupid excuses..
Haix..
Supposed we win 15-13 de
Thn they cheat,say my goal nt count
End up they win 14-15..
O.o
But i still had fun :D

Oh well,ytd was so tiring but fun :D
Looking forward to piano lessons today :D
Goodbye ^^

2009-08-08T08:03:00.000-07:00

Im tired,I want to rest
I wish the world was less complicated
Or I was the one complicating things
Either way,I have no friends left
I have nothing left
Nothing
Nothing
Nothing
No one can save me

Let me die
I dont think I want to live anymore

Unfortunately,I still have to live
It would be a selfish thing to die

Leave me alone
I want to rest

Stay away

2009-08-07T06:52:00.001-07:00

I hate you.
You never tell me where's my mistake.
You just keep on scolding me.

I dont need you
I dont need anybody
I can,with my speech alone,render you guys,obsolute.

You dont understand me.
Perhaps,I understand,how much you dont know me.
Maybe I should be more understanding,towards your ignorance.

EDIT:Let me die,I dont deserve to live anymore,Im such a sucky friend..

Ok,end of my rant
Bye.

2009-08-06T22:10:00.000-07:00

Didnt know that Friday was such a lame day..
Although being released at 10.45am is worth it I guess.
Haha xP
Had to present for chinese,I really sound like some alien..Wtf..
And the powerpoint presentation is so lame.. And looks stupid..
Forget it..
Thn we had to watch some stupid singapore vid,and the 2009 songs are crap..
I prefer the older songs,like Home :D
Anyway,we also had to write down what does the pledge means to you on a paper.
I didn't really know what to write so I wrote crap lols..
Then,we went to 2achieve's blog..
After posting the comments in the evg blog which I forgot what was it abt..
And ended up going to Robin,Chin yong and Fitri blogs..
Lols..
And we also watched the Harry Potter parody in Fitri's blog..
Made by him of cos..Nvm,Im nt really sure bt he was in tht vid! :P
Although I can't really understand wtf was the vid abt,still..
I was like,what's so funny?
Moral of the story,never get yourself linked in any class blog :D
But still,the only exception is that the class blog is dead..
Like 1ITG'08 class blog.
Thnks to me,the tagboard gt removed :D
That's an achievement! (ok this is lame..)
Nothing else happened and I went home after that..
That's all..
Bye^^

2009-08-04T05:51:00.000-07:00

Haix today so unlucky..
Forgot bring reader's digest for english..
Thn mux write a sentence which is 3lines long,25times!
Write until my hand pain..
Worst,our shoe got conficasted..
Wth..
Had to walk in one shoe..So damm embarassing..
Sebastain was the poor guy here,he only had his shoe back after school..
Since he couldnt copy in time..Lols..
Luckily I started copying immdiately..Hahas..

Other than that,school was pretty normal..
And that's all for my day..
Byebye^^

2009-08-03T05:09:00.000-07:00

Haix..Lost my phone!!!
Stupid sia..
Oh well..Not the first time anyway..

I hope the phone will at least,help someone..
That's all for my unlucky day..
Goodbye..

2009-07-31T08:19:00.000-07:00

Friday was boring.
Was probably sleeping the whole time..
Lols..
Now it's down to 7 ppl who didnt come..
Guess it's a good thing..Comeon,mux be postitve! :D
Other than that,there's really nothing much to say..
Oh,and,I sux in badminton,nver ask me to ply wif u~

I feel like I dont belong these days..

Ok,bye~

2009-07-30T05:12:00.000-07:00

Today went back to school..
Wow,16ppl didnt come today..
That's alot!
School was boring..
Even some teachers were on MC too..
So watched movies..
Only proper lessons I remember was only Maths..
D&T was just designing the card..
Slacked the whole time
Even our reccess got cut down!
What the..25mins in class doing nothing..
Library also close down!
THERE'S NOTHING TO DO!!!!
I thought that I could play pokemon in my phone to while the time away in free period
Unfortunately couldnt..
And WHY DID U HV TO FUCKING SCREAM AT ME BITCH!
JUST TELL ME AND I'LL KEEP IT!
U THINK U SO BIG ARH!
YOU DONT EVEN RESPECT ME
FUCKERS!
Hate it when some people just tell me what to do in a condescending manner.
THAT'S IT,I ONLY TOOK OUT MY PHONE TO CHECK THE DATE
AND YOU TOLD ME,IN A RUDE WAY,well i feel it was,TO SWITCH IT OFF
NO SLIENT MODE
FUCK
I WONT LISTEN TO U.
END OF STORY.
Other than that,it was pretty much free periods..
And boring..
Ok,bye guys
Cya~

2009-07-29T05:36:00.000-07:00

She can only fool herself for so long
She can only fool herself for so long
She can only fool herself for so long..

Recovered.
Ready for school.
Sad T_T
Guess its better to go to sch?
I MEAN,IT'S SO PAINFUL BEING ILL
TRY BEING UNABLE TO SLEEP FOR THE WHOLE NIGHT!
Ok..
That's all
Bye~

2009-07-25T21:38:00.000-07:00

Titled:Puppet

It's dark,the show has begun
A puppet,we see on the stage
He's part of that perfect show
The strings he's attached to
Was his very source of perfection

His friends were his audiences
They looked so happy
As they simply watched on
He had a painted smile on his face
Why couldn't anyone see through that?

Inside,within him
He feels so lost,so hopeless
He begs to be released from the string,from within
Yet,his fear of losing all his friends rejects his appeal

Someone should save him
Someone should cut the strings for him
Someone should see through him
To find himself again
To have friends to accept him the way he is
To watch an imperfect show

Give the poor puppet back
His freedom
His true friends
His life

Until then,he'll put on his perfect facade to everyone
He'll lose himself
He is nothing but a puppet
Programmed to please his audience
That's all he ever does
That's all he should always do

2009-07-25T04:30:00.000-07:00

Titled:Interlude 5

One more day has passed
And all those voices,always sayin
You simply just couldn't
Watch,how badly you've been defeated
Dream,how painful it was
Live,under extreme tension
You close your eyes
Pretend that somehow,just somehow
That the sun will rise again

2009-07-24T23:00:00.001-07:00

Im bored

-Random.exe

-Wish

-Bliss

-Peace

^^

2009-07-24T06:01:00.000-07:00

Marked for future referance
24/07/2009-??/??/2011

The answer:Yes

The truth:?

2009-07-24T03:23:00.000-07:00

One step at a time,too fast,you'll make mistakes..]

Tests are coming up!!!
Arghh!!!
I failed my maths! 1st time in Sec 2!!!
Stupid Hider..
His lessons arent interesting,and he goes too fast,way too fast!
I cant even understand wtf is he even talking about!!
I want Mr Yeo back!!!
At least,i'll have a higher chance to pass..
And alot of people failed too,not just me..
Give Hider a chance? Then who will give us a chance when we fail thn?
That's all~
Science test were for idiots..
My leg muscles,finally healed!!
I feel so fast!!!
Yeahh Hoo~!@$$ :D
Bye^^

2009-07-20T05:07:00.000-07:00

So,I finally remembered something from friday..(yay?)
2.4km run timing,I BROKE MY RECORD,NEW RECORD,11.1MINS!
Still B la..Sian..
I bet that timing mux be so average that i forgot all about it until today..
Was reminded when I still felt my leg muscles still torn from friday's run..
I CANT RUN! I HAVE TO WALK LIKE SOME FOOL TO THE TRAFFIC LIGHT SLOWLY EVEN WHEN IT'S GREEN LIGHT!! I AM SO SLOW,I HATE THIS!!

Monday was sleepy..
Physics was boring..
Learned something about electricity..
Currents of electricity to be exact..
For the 1st time this semester,I raised my hand to answer a qn..
Oh yeah,Asri was so dramatic..
Probably some other ppl too,but cant remember who..
Yes,I got that freakin qn correct..
Read more books about science,it'll help :D
I used to read them..Recently I've been reading about other things..
Mainly about love? Part of it,sci-fic too~
Maybe i'll borrow that I-robot book too~ :D
Wait for me!!

Nothing special abt maths..
Just doing some simple questions as warm up for tomorrow math test..

I saw that I-robot book in the library!!!
Wanted to borrow it,but I didnt..
How weird am I..
Hah!

Chemistry,boring..
Learned abt acids and metals..
Lalala~~~

Chinese gt another drama again..
Hao ming vs Mr Pan..
Haix..
Shuld I thank him for disrupting the lesson since his lessons are so so boring?
Haha!
Anyway,i didnt even listen to his lessons..
Since he didnt seem to care..I shall slack thn ^^
No worries,I dont need him
And I'll probably still get A2!
Cos I didnt rely on him previously..
Heh!

English was jux doing some work abt the IN newspaper..
Aft that I went home..
Nthing else..
Mondays are pretty boring.. Lols..
Ok,that's all,bye^^

2009-07-18T21:25:00.000-07:00

I love fridays.
I cant remember anything from friday.
I still hv uncompeleted homework.
I am posting something stupid.
You are an idiot if you're reading this.
Then,you realise that I was lying.
After you read finish this,you'll exit my blog.
Still,since people dont like to listen,you wont.
Stop reading please,it's really stupid.

And you're still reading this?
You dont listen,do you?
Sometimes,it'd be better if you listened.
FUCK THAT!